Update for Everyone VII: Insert Something Philosophical Sounding Here

[jamestroll]

~6.4 mile run/walk this morning! Probably my longest ever outside of hiking, etc.

oh ..


I did a 20 mile jog yesterday.

[Fight for Trump]

Hungover...

[Former President tack50]

Pre-departure IFE in American 767 biz consists of newspapers... (They do give out iPads in-flight but it's not the same thing) This is why I fly United.

To be fair, I've almost exclusively flown in tourist class and never crossed the Atlantic, but in my experience getting anything at all is already huge. I think I have only had free meals in an airplane four times in my life or so, and one of those was when I flew in business because it was somehow 20€ cheaper than tourist lol.

[Co-Chair Bagel23]

And I’m proud to be an American where at least I know I’m free and I won’t forget the women and men who died who gave that right to me and I’d gladly stand up next to you and defend her still today (seriously I would unlike Trump) cause there ain’t no doubt I love this land God bless the USA

Happy 243rd America, you don’t look a day over 30 (seriously you don’t with the current GOP in charge) but still love ya and incredibly proud to be an American.

Oh also, one of the most patriotic and American things to do is sh!t on our leaders and cancers of society.

[Fight for Trump]

Saw a girl wearing these in Germany the other day and really fancied them (the shoes), so I bought myself an identical pair.

[Bleach Blonde Bad Built Butch Bodies for Biden]

Good news for people who don't like me: I tried to end my life tonight.  Bad news: I failed spectacularly.

I was set off by yet another problem in my life; everything happens so sporadically and no matter how I try I keep getting f#cked by the powers that be.  Anyway I left a lovely note on my landlord's door, went into my room and held my therapy animals for one last time, telling them how much I love them.  My dog looked like she knew what was going on and had already resigned herself to losing another member of the family, so when I kissed her goodbye her eyes immediately shut.

To make a long story short, I walked over to the bridge a mile from my house and let myself slide into the water.  Had I known how filthy or shallow the water was I never wouldve attempted it, because I knew I couldn't bear to let myself ingest sludge and dirt and feces and whatever the hell else wasthere.  I was more disappointed that the water was so shallow, so there was no chance of drowning myself in all the muck.  I carried myself out and dragged my mud-filled shoes home for another mile, wet and covered in dirt.  I'm embarrassed for not knowing beforehand how shallow that water was.  But it didn't work, so what can you do.  When I got home I tore the suicide letter that I'd written to my landlord.

I dont know what else to do now but lie in peace.  I'm in new clothes now while my others are in the shower.  I have no energy for anything right now, honestly.  I thought that this would be my time to check out and it wasn't.  Now I'm just ashamed of how stupid I was, how poorly planned it all was.  I want to try again if I find a cleaner and less shallow stream.  I'm such a pussy.

I'll try to stay around for Atlasia stuff but I'm not doing well at all.  I left my therapist several calls while I was going through my plan and I'm sure we'll be discussing it tomorrow.

I know I should get to sleep but I can't, even though I took four Lyrica and ten of my Ativan.

Right now I just feel like a failure.  I was ready to die tonight.  I'm just too much of a coward.

[Atlas Has Shrugged]

Scott, we love you, Jesus loves you, your family loves you, and I’ll pray for you. Don’t ever forget that you are an outstanding human being with a big heart and a lot of love to give. Don’t be afraid to seek help if you need it. Stay strong, bud

[Fight for Trump]

My Hertz app changed its language to Czech and won't change back... I guess I'm learning Czech now. 

[Some of My Best Friends Are Gay]

One of my best friends is in Hong Kong right now. He sent me some videos of the protests last night; he was really right in the middle of it all. He's also managed to somehow have six gay hookups in two weeks already, and all this while working part-time and taking classes.

That's not as difficult or impressive as you think it is.


Source: am a full-time hoe with a part-time job

[Co-Chair Bagel23]

Let’s see if we can reinflate this mf’r



Nope lmao and can’t get the spare to lower either XD

[Co-Chair Bagel23]

Good news for people who don't like me: I tried to end my life tonight.  Bad news: I failed spectacularly.

I was set off by yet another problem in my life; everything happens so sporadically and no matter how I try I keep getting f#cked by the powers that be.  Anyway I left a lovely note on my landlord's door, went into my room and held my therapy animals for one last time, telling them how much I love them.  My dog looked like she knew what was going on and had already resigned herself to losing another member of the family, so when I kissed her goodbye her eyes immediately shut.

To make a long story short, I walked over to the bridge a mile from my house and let myself slide into the water.  Had I known how filthy or shallow the water was I never wouldve attempted it, because I knew I couldn't bear to let myself ingest sludge and dirt and feces and whatever the hell else wasthere.  I was more disappointed that the water was so shallow, so there was no chance of drowning myself in all the muck.  I carried myself out and dragged my mud-filled shoes home for another mile, wet and covered in dirt.  I'm embarrassed for not knowing beforehand how shallow that water was.  But it didn't work, so what can you do.  When I got home I tore the suicide letter that I'd written to my landlord.

I dont know what else to do now but lie in peace.  I'm in new clothes now while my others are in the shower.  I have no energy for anything right now, honestly.  I thought that this would be my time to check out and it wasn't.  Now I'm just ashamed of how stupid I was, how poorly planned it all was.  I want to try again if I find a cleaner and less shallow stream.  I'm such a pussy.

I'll try to stay around for Atlasia stuff but I'm not doing well at all.  I left my therapist several calls while I was going through my plan and I'm sure we'll be discussing it tomorrow.

I know I should get to sleep but I can't, even though I took four Lyrica and ten of my Ativan.

Right now I just feel like a failure.  I was ready to die tonight.  I'm just too much of a coward.

You are the exact opposite of a coward, to choose life in the face of adversity and struggle is braver than death. Please stay with us, we appreciate you even if we do not express it. We you, I would legit be very sad in rl if you actually did it, please don't . You have people from all over the country that appreciate you, which means you are an awesome person, and the people who know you irl are blessed.

[HillGoose]

I didn't even plan on drinking last night but somehow ended up getting more drunk than I have in idk how long. My snapchat story is a f!ckin mess lmao

Gonna do it again tonight.

[RINO Tom]

I didn't even plan on drinking last night but somehow ended up getting more drunk than I have in idk how long. My snapchat story is a f!ckin mess lmao

Gonna do it again tonight.

Knew I had a reason to like you!

[Mr. Smith]

Instead of getting a&*-kicked by a test, I'm getting a&*-kicked by these job applications.

How does one gain experience from a bunch of jobs demanding experience to get the job in the first place?

[FEMA Camp Administrator]

Instead of getting a&*-kicked by a test, I'm getting a&*-kicked by these job applications.

How does one gain experience from a bunch of jobs demanding experience to get the job in the first place?

Work study, internships, and entry-level crap that pays $14/hr.

[This user has not been convicted of 34 felonies]

Instead of getting a&*-kicked by a test, I'm getting a&*-kicked by these job applications.

How does one gain experience from a bunch of jobs demanding experience to get the job in the first place?

Work study, internships, and entry-level crap that pays $14/hr.

The latter of which is what I'm currently doing! And it sucks. Definitely try to find a job that won't destroy your mental health for peanuts on the dollar.

[Mr. Smith]

Instead of getting a&*-kicked by a test, I'm getting a&*-kicked by these job applications.

How does one gain experience from a bunch of jobs demanding experience to get the job in the first place?

Work study, internships, and entry-level crap that pays $14/hr.

These applications are for internships.

[Mr. Smith]

Oh, also, passport renewals are a B*(h to deal with.

[Green Line]

Oh, also, passport renewals are a B*(h to deal with.

Ugh.  I've been waiting for almost past the 6-8 week period and am getting anxious with a trip coming up...

[Bleach Blonde Bad Built Butch Bodies for Biden]

Today I met with my therapist for the first time after my suicide attempt last week.  We talked about why I did it, why I chose to live, and what I'm going to do next.  Since I didn't get to complete my college education, we looked into schools near the area that I could apply to.  The only university that is in the area is Norfolk State University - it is a historically black college, but I would qualify for a number of grants simply for being a minority there (not kidding!).  Saint Leo University (Catholic college) also has satellite campuses here and an online school, so that I can continue studying theology and work on my degree again, which I haven't been able to do since I had to leave school in 2016.

Right now the future looks pretty bright.

[Fuzzy Bear]

Overdosing on Linzess is not ideal for anyone, but it will ensure that the people who constantly tell you that "You're full of crap!" will have absolutely no credibility.

[FEMA Camp Administrator]

Last shift of a 7-day stretch tonight, then an 11-day (unpaid) vacation! Forest, mountains, Seattle.

[DavidB.]

Today I met with my therapist for the first time after my suicide attempt last week.  We talked about why I did it, why I chose to live, and what I'm going to do next.  Since I didn't get to complete my college education, we looked into schools near the area that I could apply to.  The only university that is in the area is Norfolk State University - it is a historically black college, but I would qualify for a number of grants simply for being a minority there (not kidding!).  Saint Leo University (Catholic college) also has satellite campuses here and an online school, so that I can continue studying theology and work on my degree again, which I haven't been able to do since I had to leave school in 2016.

Right now the future looks pretty bright.

Please take care of yourself.

[Fight for Trump]

I have a lot of stuff I need to do, but all I'm thinking about is going back to the hotel tonight, ordering two bottles of room service malbec and drinking them both straight from the bottle.

[MASHED POTATOES. VOTE!]

In addition to urbexing, I've recently started taking (rather amateur) shots of butterflies, and that one wasn't making it easy with his natural camouflage.