Update for Everyone VI: What Is and What Should Never Be

[HillGoose]

I got engaged yesterday #YOLO

[HillGoose]

Do yall think I should actually marry this girl? I can't believe I'm engaged to her when I barely know her but you can't get anywhere without taking risks.

Pros:
- She's hot and only a year older than me. Basic white blonde 22-year old who wears Ugg boots and likes Starbucks too much.
- Getting married would make my mother and my mother's family upset

Cons:
- I'm pretty sure I'm gay and would avoid having sex with her which doesn't sound good for a relationship.
- She reminds me of the Hooter's waitress I dated when I was 18 (who I hated)
- Not the brightest bulb in the box (like every other woman who gets obsessed with me)

so idk

[HillGoose]

First of all HillGoose, don’t you know that homosexuality is an abomination? It’s God’s and Reagan’s will that you marry this girl. I suggest you pray away your doubts.

yeah I've been trying to convince myself i'm straight since i was 14

[HillGoose]

tonight and last night felt weird. like im in a different dimension or transparent, or just like the darkness outside is oppressive. im kinda afraid of it. but idk what to do. this isn't something that normally happens to me

[HillGoose]

I did something i shouldn't have and listened to creepypastas out of boredom last night at 2 AM, and the one I listened to reminded me way, way too much of the most frightening nightmare I ever had that I'm convinced had something paranormal about it. I was too on edge to get out of the bed for the rest of the night :/

[HillGoose]

https://twitter.com/mflynnjr/status/805611056009768960

what the ever loving f!ck.


i hate those people who believe in "pizzagate" they sure don't seem to care when pastors abuse children. They only care about child abuse when it serves their agenda.

[HillGoose]

Last night was busy. I went and saw my best friend's girlfriend perform in the FSU orchestra. It was nice, and I enjoyed seeing her because I rarely get to socialize with her even though she's been dating my friend for about a year and a half now. I have a feeling she's basically going to be my future sister-in-law and she definitely has my seal of approval (not that my approval ever mattered or ever will of course). I'm looking forward to a lot more nights like that.

Oh, and afterwards I had two cute freshmen girls over at around 1:00 AM, and they both smoked for the first time with me. The one girl and I clicked and I was enjoying our conversation, but the other one got ridiculously high and was speaking utter-nonsense and basically crashed the vibe. I was actually struck by how  significantly less awkward and more social I've been as of late. I attribute it to some serious spiritual growth in the last few weeks.

I'm actually entertaining the idea of going into the Ministry as of late. I kid you not. Of course, I'll have to give up my vices such as weed and cigarettes, but I think those will be easy obstacles to conquer once I get into the right mindset.

Lastly, I'm planning on launching a parliamentary America election series on AH.com similar to the whole "Where the World will Lead" project. I'm excited to nerd out over that in the future.

the first time i smoked i think i killed everyone's vibe lol. i was with 3 girls and kept talking about how i thought i was going to die and one of the girls who has the same psychiatric condition i do joined in and started talking about how she was scared of death too, so we just kind of freaked out in the corner while the other two stared at us.

[HillGoose]

heading to Panama City Beach tomorrow afternoon #SpringBreak

[HillGoose]

im not too good

-im stupid
-only do bad things
-i hate myself
-im going to hell
-my parents knew i was worthless
-i think strangers sneak in my house and put poison in my food or meningitis/HIV infected needles in my furniture so I'll cut myself and die.

idk what else

[HillGoose]

Just found out I scored very, very well on the SAT.

Interesting. If you don’t mind me asking, exactly how well?

1590.

man thats awesome i only got a 23

[HillGoose]

Just found out I scored very, very well on the SAT.

Interesting. If you don’t mind me asking, exactly how well?

1590.

man thats awesome i only got a 23

Are you sure? I'm pretty sure you'd have to actively try to be that stupid.

yeah i told "the man" to take his tests with him and crawl back into hell #YOLO

[HillGoose]

i want 2 run for the Tennessee State House of Representatives, how do I register to do that any1 know?

also my slogan:

"#YoloSwag420 vote Mr. Doctor Bus Driver for State House District 39"

[HillGoose]

So, I went on a date with a girl last week and it went well and we have a second date this weekend and I'm a bit nervous and trying to get everything right Lol.

Been in a super upbeat mood all week because of it, which is a nice change of pace.

WOOOO

hahaha yea. Sunrise is humaning for once! haha

ask what her opinion on geese is.

that's always my first question

[HillGoose]

My health teacher described the most depressed kid in the class as "a kid who wears earphones all the time and doesn't want to talk to anybody or do anything". Not verbatim, but that was the general gist. Burst into tears over it, because he made me realize: That's me, and I'll never be a productive member of society because of it.

don't let other people get in your way, don't let them control you.

[HillGoose]

So I spent a minute gasping for air after I had a coughing fit. Maybe I should see a doctor.

Get rid of the cigarettes, like I did.

i do that a lot and i dont even smoke.

i should probably see a doctor but im scared of the doctor

[HillGoose]

im such a screw up. i dont know what to do thats right.

[HillGoose]

im such a screw up. i dont know what to do thats right.

Not spamming Off Topic with stream of consciousness threads would be a start.

idk, i mean in real life.

i dont care about the internet too much or, im not sure.

[HillGoose]

i dont know what ive been thinking about lately. im happier and sadder than i have been in months, both at the same time and its very confusing.

[HillGoose]

i dont know what ive been thinking about lately. im happier and sadder than i have been in months, both at the same time and its very confusing.

“Not as happy as Macbeth, and yet much happier”

its been the weirdest thing yeah

[HillGoose]

i was joking and asked my fiancée "would you rather date a gay guy or a redneck?" and she said "sadly for me i'm engaged to both"

how does she know?

[HillGoose]

On that note: why are proms even things still?

To single out and humiliate "uncool kids".

This is all ... rather cynical, haha...

Cynicism is one of the most popular tools used to tell the truth.

i only went to prom to convince myself i was straight with this girl i was dating but i would of rather been home.

[HillGoose]

On that note: why are proms even things still?

Desire by parents and school administration to humiliate students.

I had fun at my senior prom, no humiliation involved.

Then you weren’t the target.

"the target"

i dont think anyone was targeted at my prom... it was incredibly dull, even when the best friend of the girl i was with tried to get me to abandon my date and leave with her.

lol what a time

[HillGoose]

how do i convince myself to be straight...

[HillGoose]

im stupid and it makes me so mad

[HillGoose]

I'm going to Cabo for a week this summer with two of my friends. hell yeah!