Update Season VII: "The OK Corral"

[Mr. Morden]

I have everything figured out toward the last of this decade in beyond.

!!!

[Queen Mum Inks.LWC]

We shall see won't we.  I will say that scheduling an appointment with a Dietitian is a good start, wouldn't you agree?  The only trick will be sticking to the game plan that we derive.

You can sorta see the f-word in there... I thought about removing this, but I'll let it go this time.

I'm joking... but I'm guessing that someone will think I'm being serious.

[Queen Mum Inks.LWC]

Eating at Golden Corral wont help you achieve you dreams.

It will help that I haven't had anything to eat today up until this outing.

It will also help end your life sooner as you fill your arteries with more plaque.

[Queen Mum Inks.LWC]

These constant pipe dreams and inability to focus on anything is not normal and you need to see a therapist.

Nonesense!  Bushie is tied to reality and in no way impulsive.

[memphis]

A therapist can't prescribe drugs. Only a medical doctor, like a psychiatrist, can do that. Or a nurse practitioner in certain circumstances. A therapist is just somebody to talk to. It's basically the same thing that you're doing with the Update. You obviously have a lot of stresses in your life and feel the need to express them. Sadly, due to legalities, members of the Atlas Forum can't offer you drugs either. Believe me, if I could, I would have sent you some a long time ago.

[Queen Mum Inks.LWC]

May I ask the forum a question?  Anybody who wants to respond feel free?

Why am I not encouraged to follow my dreams?  Am I somehow not allowed to follow my dreams?  Every time I mention something I hear people constantly saying "it's impossible", "don't try it", "you're wasting your time", "it's a pipe dream", etc.

I have made many mistakes, but it doesn't mean I have no right to pursue my dreams.

Because your dreams change weekly.  Select a reasonable dream that will actually benefit you and those around you... a dream that is actually achievable, and go with it.  Nobody said you're not allowed to follow your dreams, but you need to be realistic.  And the current dreams aren't realistic.

[Queen Mum Inks.LWC]

May I ask the forum a question?  Anybody who wants to respond feel free?

Why am I not encouraged to follow my dreams?  Am I somehow not allowed to follow my dreams?  Every time I mention something I hear people constantly saying "it's impossible", "don't try it", "you're wasting your time", "it's a pipe dream", etc.

I have made many mistakes, but it doesn't mean I have no right to pursue my dreams.

Which dream, the pastor, the Rainbow system guy, the architect, The Utahan, the Peace corps, the Maisha rep, the church planter, the devoted husband caring for a disabled wife and her mammy, dell guy, parks department guy, weight loss guy, which one is it Jeff.

You didn't answer my question.  Have you heard of someone still searching for their calling, and throwing out ideas out loud?

You do more than throw out ideas out loud.  You usually say that you've decided on something, not that you're considering it.  Then when circumstances change, you say things are changing, and by the end, things end up completely different than what you said.

At one point, you were saying that God was physically telling you that you would end up in Kenya... so if you don't end up in Kenya, you were either (1) lying or (2) suffering from some mental delusion.

There's a difference between throwing ideas out loud and doing what you're doing.  If you don't see the difference, that's another reason you need help (and likely the reason you don't see yourself as being impulsive).

[Joe Biden 2020]

May I ask the forum a question?  Anybody who wants to respond feel free?

Why am I not encouraged to follow my dreams?  Am I somehow not allowed to follow my dreams?  Every time I mention something I hear people constantly saying "it's impossible", "don't try it", "you're wasting your time", "it's a pipe dream", etc.

I have made many mistakes, but it doesn't mean I have no right to pursue my dreams.

Because your dreams change weekly.  Select a reasonable dream that will actually benefit you and those around you... a dream that is actually achievable, and go with it.  Nobody said you're not allowed to follow your dreams, but you need to be realistic.  And the current dreams aren't realistic.

So, my dreams of ever going overseas is not realistic?

Answer me this.  What is the harm in applying for the Peace Corps?  The worst they can say is "no", right?

[Mr. Morden]

Sadly, due to legalities, members of the Atlas Forum can't offer you drugs either.

God is stronger than legalities.

[Joe Biden 2020]

May I ask the forum a question?  Anybody who wants to respond feel free?

Why am I not encouraged to follow my dreams?  Am I somehow not allowed to follow my dreams?  Every time I mention something I hear people constantly saying "it's impossible", "don't try it", "you're wasting your time", "it's a pipe dream", etc.

I have made many mistakes, but it doesn't mean I have no right to pursue my dreams.

Which dream, the pastor, the Rainbow system guy, the architect, The Utahan, the Peace corps, the Maisha rep, the church planter, the devoted husband caring for a disabled wife and her mammy, dell guy, parks department guy, weight loss guy, which one is it Jeff.

You didn't answer my question.  Have you heard of someone still searching for their calling, and throwing out ideas out loud?

You do more than throw out ideas out loud.  You usually say that you've decided on something, not that you're considering it.  Then when circumstances change, you say things are changing, and by the end, things end up completely different than what you said.

At one point, you were saying that God was physically telling you that you would end up in Kenya... so if you don't end up in Kenya, you were either (1) lying or (2) suffering from some mental delusion.

There's a difference between throwing ideas out loud and doing what you're doing.  If you don't see the difference, that's another reason you need help (and likely the reason you don't see yourself as being impulsive).

I have never backed off Kenya.  I will still end up in Kenya.

[Queen Mum Inks.LWC]

These constant pipe dreams and inability to focus on anything is not normal and you need to see a therapist.

So, its not normal to have dreams?

Nope. You have a new plan, dream and goal every day. This is not normal behavior and you need to fix it.

Have you heard of the term called "change"?  My plans are not completely different each time, they are evolving.  I don't know if you realize, but the Peace Corps is related to foreign missions.  Yes, I need to find one thing and stick to it, but to think that it is somehow not normal to still be searching for one's calling is ludicrous

Your thought patterns are sabotaging your life.  You are lacking in focus and worse yet not learning from your missteps. I think talking to someone will help you.

I do not have the money to see a super-expensive therapist who cares nothing for me except my wallet, but will charge me out the wazoo for a 5 minute session and prescribe me some expensive medication.  That's not going to happen.  That is not needed.  The only way I would go is if I were guaranteed to not have to pay a single solitary dime.

And here you go with the false dilemmas again.  "Super-expensive therapist" vs. "not have to pay a single solitary dime".  It seems that there's never any middle room for you, and again, that's not normal.  How many times have I told you that you should talk to a religious person who's outside of your immediate circle?  But you haven't done it.  The problem is that if you talk to a religious person, they're likely to agree that what you're doing is good, because you tend to only share the good things and not share the bad.  So he may think that your life is all in order to do missions, but if you told the person you seek advice from that you're a morbidly obese 31-year-old who lives with his parents and has an addiction to unhealthy food, that you have an addiction to porn that's so bad that you're willing to defraud your parents, that you're a habitual liar, and that you're likely bipolar, you'd be hard-pressed to find ANYONE who would tell you that you're in a condition to do missions.  The people who cheer you on for what you're doing are only cheering you on because they know half the story--the half that you tell them, conveniently leaving out the parts that you know would hurt the furthering of your dreams.

[Queen Mum Inks.LWC]

May I ask the forum a question?  Anybody who wants to respond feel free?

Why am I not encouraged to follow my dreams?  Am I somehow not allowed to follow my dreams?  Every time I mention something I hear people constantly saying "it's impossible", "don't try it", "you're wasting your time", "it's a pipe dream", etc.

I have made many mistakes, but it doesn't mean I have no right to pursue my dreams.

Because it's is actually important I'll break my vow of update silence and explain this one for you. (And yeah all these gifs has a specific message I'm trying to make, although admittedly some are so abstract I'm not really expecting anyone get them).

The net symbolizes your goals.

The jumping man is you.

His rolls of fat are your rolls of fat and also symbolizes your numerous habits that are unhealthy for you mentally and physically.

The mat is your dependency on others because you're unable to take care of yourself.

EDIT: And just so we're clear I'll go ahead and connect the dots between these concepts. If you try to keep your eye on the prize without solving the problems that are holding you back you'll fail and nothing will change. Get your day to day life in order before you even think about what your plans will be more than like a year from now. If you can't even motivate yourself to walk around the block how do you think you'll motivate yourself to focus on your education and graduate at the time you're expecting, let alone keep up with all the other things you want to do after that?

What you don't realize, BK, is my life is in order.  I do have things together.  No body believes me, but I seriously do have things together.  I've got my God to fill in the gaps.  One thing I know is certain, the duration of my life will be focused on foreign missions (a very noble and non-egotistical endeavor).  It just remains a question of which capacity do I enter the mission field?  Do I enter through the Peace Corps (which is foreign missions) or do I enter directly through Maisha?  That part, I don't have figured out, yet.  As far as my weight goes, would people please give me a freakin' chance!!!!!  I am going to a Dietitian next Wednesday, but not a single post has been made on that.  Everybody is saying I am doomed and have absolutely no hope.  Where is the encouragement in that?  Give me a chance!!!!

Why should we mention your dietician?  History has shown us that you don't listen to your doctors.  A year ago, you were seeing the new Indian doctor who told you to lose weight, and back then, you vowed to lose weight.  Month after month, you keep telling us you're going to lose weight, yet it hasn't happened.  Why is this time going to be any different?  Sure, you think it's going to be, but the precedent says otherwise.

[Queen Mum Inks.LWC]

Glad to hear you have it all figured out then. Do you, Jeff. Do you.

I have everything figured out toward the last of this decade in beyond.  Like I just told Mr. Morden, my life will end up in Kenya.  That is no longer in doubt, and has not been in doubt for sometime.  The only question remains is when do I go.  Do I go to Kenya right away (as in 2015-2016) or do I start off in the Peace Corps, gain International Living Experience, and go to Kenya say in 2018?  The long term plan is set in stone, the short term plan is what I'm still trying to figure out.

No plan is set in stone.  To think that is ridiculous.

[Joe Biden 2020]

These constant pipe dreams and inability to focus on anything is not normal and you need to see a therapist.

So, its not normal to have dreams?

Nope. You have a new plan, dream and goal every day. This is not normal behavior and you need to fix it.

Have you heard of the term called "change"?  My plans are not completely different each time, they are evolving.  I don't know if you realize, but the Peace Corps is related to foreign missions.  Yes, I need to find one thing and stick to it, but to think that it is somehow not normal to still be searching for one's calling is ludicrous

Your thought patterns are sabotaging your life.  You are lacking in focus and worse yet not learning from your missteps. I think talking to someone will help you.

I do not have the money to see a super-expensive therapist who cares nothing for me except my wallet, but will charge me out the wazoo for a 5 minute session and prescribe me some expensive medication.  That's not going to happen.  That is not needed.  The only way I would go is if I were guaranteed to not have to pay a single solitary dime.

And here you go with the false dilemmas again.  "Super-expensive therapist" vs. "not have to pay a single solitary dime".  It seems that there's never any middle room for you, and again, that's not normal.  How many times have I told you that you should talk to a religious person who's outside of your immediate circle?  But you haven't done it.  The problem is that if you talk to a religious person, they're likely to agree that what you're doing is good, because you tend to only share the good things and not share the bad.  So he may think that your life is all in order to do missions, but if you told the person you seek advice from that you're a morbidly obese 31-year-old who lives with his parents and has an addiction to unhealthy food, that you have an addiction to porn that's so bad that you're willing to defraud your parents, that you're a habitual liar, and that you're likely bipolar, you'd be hard-pressed to find ANYONE who would tell you that you're in a condition to do missions.  The people who cheer you on for what you're doing are only cheering you on because they know half the story--the half that you tell them, conveniently leaving out the parts that you know would hurt the furthering of your dreams.

How many times have I said that RIGHT NOW, I am in no shape to go overseas long term.  That has absolutely no bearing on a year from now, 2 years from now, 5 years from now, and so on.

[Joe Biden 2020]

May I ask the forum a question?  Anybody who wants to respond feel free?

Why am I not encouraged to follow my dreams?  Am I somehow not allowed to follow my dreams?  Every time I mention something I hear people constantly saying "it's impossible", "don't try it", "you're wasting your time", "it's a pipe dream", etc.

I have made many mistakes, but it doesn't mean I have no right to pursue my dreams.

Because it's is actually important I'll break my vow of update silence and explain this one for you. (And yeah all these gifs has a specific message I'm trying to make, although admittedly some are so abstract I'm not really expecting anyone get them).

The net symbolizes your goals.

The jumping man is you.

His rolls of fat are your rolls of fat and also symbolizes your numerous habits that are unhealthy for you mentally and physically.

The mat is your dependency on others because you're unable to take care of yourself.

EDIT: And just so we're clear I'll go ahead and connect the dots between these concepts. If you try to keep your eye on the prize without solving the problems that are holding you back you'll fail and nothing will change. Get your day to day life in order before you even think about what your plans will be more than like a year from now. If you can't even motivate yourself to walk around the block how do you think you'll motivate yourself to focus on your education and graduate at the time you're expecting, let alone keep up with all the other things you want to do after that?

What you don't realize, BK, is my life is in order.  I do have things together.  No body believes me, but I seriously do have things together.  I've got my God to fill in the gaps.  One thing I know is certain, the duration of my life will be focused on foreign missions (a very noble and non-egotistical endeavor).  It just remains a question of which capacity do I enter the mission field?  Do I enter through the Peace Corps (which is foreign missions) or do I enter directly through Maisha?  That part, I don't have figured out, yet.  As far as my weight goes, would people please give me a freakin' chance!!!!!  I am going to a Dietitian next Wednesday, but not a single post has been made on that.  Everybody is saying I am doomed and have absolutely no hope.  Where is the encouragement in that?  Give me a chance!!!!

Why should we mention your dietician?  History has shown us that you don't listen to your doctors.  A year ago, you were seeing the new Indian doctor who told you to lose weight, and back then, you vowed to lose weight.  Month after month, you keep telling us you're going to lose weight, yet it hasn't happened.  Why is this time going to be any different?  Sure, you think it's going to be, but the precedent says otherwise.

Precedent may say otherwise, but that means ABSOLUTELY NOTHING about the future.

I wish people would give me a chance before they say I'm hopeless and I will never change and attempt to discourage me from doing something radical.  My dreams don't have to be what everybody else is doing.  I can have radical dreams, and I can achieve them.

[Joe Biden 2020]

Glad to hear you have it all figured out then. Do you, Jeff. Do you.

I have everything figured out toward the last of this decade in beyond.  Like I just told Mr. Morden, my life will end up in Kenya.  That is no longer in doubt, and has not been in doubt for sometime.  The only question remains is when do I go.  Do I go to Kenya right away (as in 2015-2016) or do I start off in the Peace Corps, gain International Living Experience, and go to Kenya say in 2018?  The long term plan is set in stone, the short term plan is what I'm still trying to figure out.

No plan is set in stone.  To think that is ridiculous.

Set in stone may be too strong of a word considering only God knows what is going to happen that far out.  At this point, I will say it is more likely to happen than not.

[Queen Mum Inks.LWC]

May I ask the forum a question?  Anybody who wants to respond feel free?

Why am I not encouraged to follow my dreams?  Am I somehow not allowed to follow my dreams?  Every time I mention something I hear people constantly saying "it's impossible", "don't try it", "you're wasting your time", "it's a pipe dream", etc.

I have made many mistakes, but it doesn't mean I have no right to pursue my dreams.

Because your dreams change weekly.  Select a reasonable dream that will actually benefit you and those around you... a dream that is actually achievable, and go with it.  Nobody said you're not allowed to follow your dreams, but you need to be realistic.  And the current dreams aren't realistic.

So, my dreams of ever going overseas is not realistic?

Answer me this.  What is the harm in applying for the Peace Corps?  The worst they can say is "no", right?

I'm not going to answer the first question, because that's what I said, and you know it.  I won't entertain your logical fallacies.

There is no harm in applying for the Peace Corps.  There is harm in YOU applying for the Peace Corps, because when you apply for something, you get it in your head that what you're applying for is meant for you and will happen, and you start preemptively taking actions to prepare to do that thing.  For a stable person, there's no problem in applying, but for you, there are dozens of problems.  I'd list them all, but that'd take me 20 minutes, and it's likely that you'd ignore them, so I'm not going to waste my time.

[Queen Mum Inks.LWC]

May I ask the forum a question?  Anybody who wants to respond feel free?

Why am I not encouraged to follow my dreams?  Am I somehow not allowed to follow my dreams?  Every time I mention something I hear people constantly saying "it's impossible", "don't try it", "you're wasting your time", "it's a pipe dream", etc.

I have made many mistakes, but it doesn't mean I have no right to pursue my dreams.

Which dream, the pastor, the Rainbow system guy, the architect, The Utahan, the Peace corps, the Maisha rep, the church planter, the devoted husband caring for a disabled wife and her mammy, dell guy, parks department guy, weight loss guy, which one is it Jeff.

You didn't answer my question.  Have you heard of someone still searching for their calling, and throwing out ideas out loud?

You do more than throw out ideas out loud.  You usually say that you've decided on something, not that you're considering it.  Then when circumstances change, you say things are changing, and by the end, things end up completely different than what you said.

At one point, you were saying that God was physically telling you that you would end up in Kenya... so if you don't end up in Kenya, you were either (1) lying or (2) suffering from some mental delusion.

There's a difference between throwing ideas out loud and doing what you're doing.  If you don't see the difference, that's another reason you need help (and likely the reason you don't see yourself as being impulsive).

I have never backed off Kenya.  I will still end up in Kenya.

And if you don't, what's the reason?  Because if you die without ever going to Kenya, you can be sure that God will ask you, "Why did you tell people that I spoke to you to go to Kenya?"  False prophecy is not something to play around with... it's one of the most dangerous of sins, because it not only affects you, but those around you.

[Queen Mum Inks.LWC]

These constant pipe dreams and inability to focus on anything is not normal and you need to see a therapist.

So, its not normal to have dreams?

Nope. You have a new plan, dream and goal every day. This is not normal behavior and you need to fix it.

Have you heard of the term called "change"?  My plans are not completely different each time, they are evolving.  I don't know if you realize, but the Peace Corps is related to foreign missions.  Yes, I need to find one thing and stick to it, but to think that it is somehow not normal to still be searching for one's calling is ludicrous

Your thought patterns are sabotaging your life.  You are lacking in focus and worse yet not learning from your missteps. I think talking to someone will help you.

I do not have the money to see a super-expensive therapist who cares nothing for me except my wallet, but will charge me out the wazoo for a 5 minute session and prescribe me some expensive medication.  That's not going to happen.  That is not needed.  The only way I would go is if I were guaranteed to not have to pay a single solitary dime.

And here you go with the false dilemmas again.  "Super-expensive therapist" vs. "not have to pay a single solitary dime".  It seems that there's never any middle room for you, and again, that's not normal.  How many times have I told you that you should talk to a religious person who's outside of your immediate circle?  But you haven't done it.  The problem is that if you talk to a religious person, they're likely to agree that what you're doing is good, because you tend to only share the good things and not share the bad.  So he may think that your life is all in order to do missions, but if you told the person you seek advice from that you're a morbidly obese 31-year-old who lives with his parents and has an addiction to unhealthy food, that you have an addiction to porn that's so bad that you're willing to defraud your parents, that you're a habitual liar, and that you're likely bipolar, you'd be hard-pressed to find ANYONE who would tell you that you're in a condition to do missions.  The people who cheer you on for what you're doing are only cheering you on because they know half the story--the half that you tell them, conveniently leaving out the parts that you know would hurt the furthering of your dreams.

How many times have I said that RIGHT NOW, I am in no shape to go overseas long term.  That has absolutely no bearing on a year from now, 2 years from now, 5 years from now, and so on.

A year ago, you said you were going to lose weight...

[Queen Mum Inks.LWC]

May I ask the forum a question?  Anybody who wants to respond feel free?

Why am I not encouraged to follow my dreams?  Am I somehow not allowed to follow my dreams?  Every time I mention something I hear people constantly saying "it's impossible", "don't try it", "you're wasting your time", "it's a pipe dream", etc.

I have made many mistakes, but it doesn't mean I have no right to pursue my dreams.

Because it's is actually important I'll break my vow of update silence and explain this one for you. (And yeah all these gifs has a specific message I'm trying to make, although admittedly some are so abstract I'm not really expecting anyone get them).

The net symbolizes your goals.

The jumping man is you.

His rolls of fat are your rolls of fat and also symbolizes your numerous habits that are unhealthy for you mentally and physically.

The mat is your dependency on others because you're unable to take care of yourself.

EDIT: And just so we're clear I'll go ahead and connect the dots between these concepts. If you try to keep your eye on the prize without solving the problems that are holding you back you'll fail and nothing will change. Get your day to day life in order before you even think about what your plans will be more than like a year from now. If you can't even motivate yourself to walk around the block how do you think you'll motivate yourself to focus on your education and graduate at the time you're expecting, let alone keep up with all the other things you want to do after that?

What you don't realize, BK, is my life is in order.  I do have things together.  No body believes me, but I seriously do have things together.  I've got my God to fill in the gaps.  One thing I know is certain, the duration of my life will be focused on foreign missions (a very noble and non-egotistical endeavor).  It just remains a question of which capacity do I enter the mission field?  Do I enter through the Peace Corps (which is foreign missions) or do I enter directly through Maisha?  That part, I don't have figured out, yet.  As far as my weight goes, would people please give me a freakin' chance!!!!!  I am going to a Dietitian next Wednesday, but not a single post has been made on that.  Everybody is saying I am doomed and have absolutely no hope.  Where is the encouragement in that?  Give me a chance!!!!

Why should we mention your dietician?  History has shown us that you don't listen to your doctors.  A year ago, you were seeing the new Indian doctor who told you to lose weight, and back then, you vowed to lose weight.  Month after month, you keep telling us you're going to lose weight, yet it hasn't happened.  Why is this time going to be any different?  Sure, you think it's going to be, but the precedent says otherwise.

Precedent may say otherwise, but that means ABSOLUTELY NOTHING about the future.

I wish people would give me a chance before they say I'm hopeless and I will never change and attempt to discourage me from doing something radical.  My dreams don't have to be what everybody else is doing.  I can have radical dreams, and I can achieve them.

It's a good indicator for the future.  Jeff, you can't even walk a quarter of a mile.  I've been bugging you to do this for what... a month now?  That's not radical.  How can you achieve radical dreams if you can't do that?  Yet, you still don't do it.  It would be VERY easy to start walking.  Nothings stopping you other than your lame excuses.

[Joe Biden 2020]

May I ask the forum a question?  Anybody who wants to respond feel free?

Why am I not encouraged to follow my dreams?  Am I somehow not allowed to follow my dreams?  Every time I mention something I hear people constantly saying "it's impossible", "don't try it", "you're wasting your time", "it's a pipe dream", etc.

I have made many mistakes, but it doesn't mean I have no right to pursue my dreams.

Because your dreams change weekly.  Select a reasonable dream that will actually benefit you and those around you... a dream that is actually achievable, and go with it.  Nobody said you're not allowed to follow your dreams, but you need to be realistic.  And the current dreams aren't realistic.

So, my dreams of ever going overseas is not realistic?

Answer me this.  What is the harm in applying for the Peace Corps?  The worst they can say is "no", right?

I'm not going to answer the first question, because that's what I said, and you know it.  I won't entertain your logical fallacies.

There is no harm in applying for the Peace Corps.  There is harm in YOU applying for the Peace Corps, because when you apply for something, you get it in your head that what you're applying for is meant for you and will happen, and you start preemptively taking actions to prepare to do that thing.  For a stable person, there's no problem in applying, but for you, there are dozens of problems.  I'd list them all, but that'd take me 20 minutes, and it's likely that you'd ignore them, so I'm not going to waste my time.

On the second paragraph, my Pastor shared with me the other night that sometimes in order to find out if God opens a door is to approach the door and knock.  If the door opens, walk through it.  If the door does not open, try another door.  Nobody can open a door God wants shut and nobody can close a door God wants open.  That's just how it is.  Before I apply, and after I apply, I must prepare by losing weight.  That will be the single best thing I can do whether or not I end up in the Peace Corps or not.

[Joe Biden 2020]

May I ask the forum a question?  Anybody who wants to respond feel free?

Why am I not encouraged to follow my dreams?  Am I somehow not allowed to follow my dreams?  Every time I mention something I hear people constantly saying "it's impossible", "don't try it", "you're wasting your time", "it's a pipe dream", etc.

I have made many mistakes, but it doesn't mean I have no right to pursue my dreams.

Which dream, the pastor, the Rainbow system guy, the architect, The Utahan, the Peace corps, the Maisha rep, the church planter, the devoted husband caring for a disabled wife and her mammy, dell guy, parks department guy, weight loss guy, which one is it Jeff.

You didn't answer my question.  Have you heard of someone still searching for their calling, and throwing out ideas out loud?

You do more than throw out ideas out loud.  You usually say that you've decided on something, not that you're considering it.  Then when circumstances change, you say things are changing, and by the end, things end up completely different than what you said.

At one point, you were saying that God was physically telling you that you would end up in Kenya... so if you don't end up in Kenya, you were either (1) lying or (2) suffering from some mental delusion.

There's a difference between throwing ideas out loud and doing what you're doing.  If you don't see the difference, that's another reason you need help (and likely the reason you don't see yourself as being impulsive).

I have never backed off Kenya.  I will still end up in Kenya.

And if you don't, what's the reason?  Because if you die without ever going to Kenya, you can be sure that God will ask you, "Why did you tell people that I spoke to you to go to Kenya?"  False prophecy is not something to play around with... it's one of the most dangerous of sins, because it not only affects you, but those around you.

I'm not going to entertain this paragraph.

[Joe Biden 2020]

May I ask the forum a question?  Anybody who wants to respond feel free?

Why am I not encouraged to follow my dreams?  Am I somehow not allowed to follow my dreams?  Every time I mention something I hear people constantly saying "it's impossible", "don't try it", "you're wasting your time", "it's a pipe dream", etc.

I have made many mistakes, but it doesn't mean I have no right to pursue my dreams.

Because it's is actually important I'll break my vow of update silence and explain this one for you. (And yeah all these gifs has a specific message I'm trying to make, although admittedly some are so abstract I'm not really expecting anyone get them).

The net symbolizes your goals.

The jumping man is you.

His rolls of fat are your rolls of fat and also symbolizes your numerous habits that are unhealthy for you mentally and physically.

The mat is your dependency on others because you're unable to take care of yourself.

EDIT: And just so we're clear I'll go ahead and connect the dots between these concepts. If you try to keep your eye on the prize without solving the problems that are holding you back you'll fail and nothing will change. Get your day to day life in order before you even think about what your plans will be more than like a year from now. If you can't even motivate yourself to walk around the block how do you think you'll motivate yourself to focus on your education and graduate at the time you're expecting, let alone keep up with all the other things you want to do after that?

What you don't realize, BK, is my life is in order.  I do have things together.  No body believes me, but I seriously do have things together.  I've got my God to fill in the gaps.  One thing I know is certain, the duration of my life will be focused on foreign missions (a very noble and non-egotistical endeavor).  It just remains a question of which capacity do I enter the mission field?  Do I enter through the Peace Corps (which is foreign missions) or do I enter directly through Maisha?  That part, I don't have figured out, yet.  As far as my weight goes, would people please give me a freakin' chance!!!!!  I am going to a Dietitian next Wednesday, but not a single post has been made on that.  Everybody is saying I am doomed and have absolutely no hope.  Where is the encouragement in that?  Give me a chance!!!!

Why should we mention your dietician?  History has shown us that you don't listen to your doctors.  A year ago, you were seeing the new Indian doctor who told you to lose weight, and back then, you vowed to lose weight.  Month after month, you keep telling us you're going to lose weight, yet it hasn't happened.  Why is this time going to be any different?  Sure, you think it's going to be, but the precedent says otherwise.

Precedent may say otherwise, but that means ABSOLUTELY NOTHING about the future.

I wish people would give me a chance before they say I'm hopeless and I will never change and attempt to discourage me from doing something radical.  My dreams don't have to be what everybody else is doing.  I can have radical dreams, and I can achieve them.

It's a good indicator for the future.  Jeff, you can't even walk a quarter of a mile.  I've been bugging you to do this for what... a month now?  That's not radical.  How can you achieve radical dreams if you can't do that?  Yet, you still don't do it.  It would be VERY easy to start walking.  Nothings stopping you other than your lame excuses.

I can and have walked 1.5 miles on a couple of occasions and probably could have walked another mile if I hadn't had to get home.  You're right, the only thing stopping me is laziness.  Once I get that kicked, I'll be in good shape.

[Queen Mum Inks.LWC]

May I ask the forum a question?  Anybody who wants to respond feel free?

Why am I not encouraged to follow my dreams?  Am I somehow not allowed to follow my dreams?  Every time I mention something I hear people constantly saying "it's impossible", "don't try it", "you're wasting your time", "it's a pipe dream", etc.

I have made many mistakes, but it doesn't mean I have no right to pursue my dreams.

Because your dreams change weekly.  Select a reasonable dream that will actually benefit you and those around you... a dream that is actually achievable, and go with it.  Nobody said you're not allowed to follow your dreams, but you need to be realistic.  And the current dreams aren't realistic.

So, my dreams of ever going overseas is not realistic?

Answer me this.  What is the harm in applying for the Peace Corps?  The worst they can say is "no", right?

I'm not going to answer the first question, because that's what I said, and you know it.  I won't entertain your logical fallacies.

There is no harm in applying for the Peace Corps.  There is harm in YOU applying for the Peace Corps, because when you apply for something, you get it in your head that what you're applying for is meant for you and will happen, and you start preemptively taking actions to prepare to do that thing.  For a stable person, there's no problem in applying, but for you, there are dozens of problems.  I'd list them all, but that'd take me 20 minutes, and it's likely that you'd ignore them, so I'm not going to waste my time.

On the second paragraph, my Pastor shared with me the other night that sometimes in order to find out if God opens a door is to approach the door and knock.  If the door opens, walk through it.  If the door does not open, try another door.  Nobody can open a door God wants shut and nobody can close a door God wants open.  That's just how it is.  Before I apply, and after I apply, I must prepare by losing weight.  That will be the single best thing I can do whether or not I end up in the Peace Corps or not.

That addressed nothing of what I was trying to get at.

[Queen Mum Inks.LWC]

May I ask the forum a question?  Anybody who wants to respond feel free?

Why am I not encouraged to follow my dreams?  Am I somehow not allowed to follow my dreams?  Every time I mention something I hear people constantly saying "it's impossible", "don't try it", "you're wasting your time", "it's a pipe dream", etc.

I have made many mistakes, but it doesn't mean I have no right to pursue my dreams.

Which dream, the pastor, the Rainbow system guy, the architect, The Utahan, the Peace corps, the Maisha rep, the church planter, the devoted husband caring for a disabled wife and her mammy, dell guy, parks department guy, weight loss guy, which one is it Jeff.

You didn't answer my question.  Have you heard of someone still searching for their calling, and throwing out ideas out loud?

You do more than throw out ideas out loud.  You usually say that you've decided on something, not that you're considering it.  Then when circumstances change, you say things are changing, and by the end, things end up completely different than what you said.

At one point, you were saying that God was physically telling you that you would end up in Kenya... so if you don't end up in Kenya, you were either (1) lying or (2) suffering from some mental delusion.

There's a difference between throwing ideas out loud and doing what you're doing.  If you don't see the difference, that's another reason you need help (and likely the reason you don't see yourself as being impulsive).

I have never backed off Kenya.  I will still end up in Kenya.

And if you don't, what's the reason?  Because if you die without ever going to Kenya, you can be sure that God will ask you, "Why did you tell people that I spoke to you to go to Kenya?"  False prophecy is not something to play around with... it's one of the most dangerous of sins, because it not only affects you, but those around you.

I'm not going to entertain this paragraph.

That's fine.  My questions don't matter.  But if you die without going to Kenya, you can be sure that God is going to have some things to say about what you've claimed on this forum.