The Update for Everybody Else

[Morning in Atlas]

Nathan, you have Atlas's condolences.

It's time for me (and one of our other mutual friends who isn't related to this story) to step in. My friend's whipped problem is at a new level. He's always been dreadfully obsequious with women (to the point where he's sold a secret of mine out to try and get laid and bought a girl he was trying to ask out a ring), but AFAIK not at this level.

I introduced my friend (we'll call him Follower from now on) to my best friend (we're calling her BFF). I met BFF online, and we became close to the point where we met IRL. She encouraged me to apply to her college, and I'm going this year. She turned out not to be a 50-year-old hairy pedophile, so you could say it was a success. I told her about Follower, she wanted to meet him, and I introduced them. It was love at first sight for him.

Long story short, after about 6 months, Follower just told BFF he wants to transfer to our college. She just told me the news today. I'm extremely skeptical about this, because he's been working his ass off to transfer to a different school this year, go to ROTC, and go into the army. Now, he wants to throw all of that away for one girl? One girl who basically only wanted him to visit her if I came too? I'm not that desperate that I'd drop everything for any girl.

Okay, maybe if she was Kate Upton. But you get the point. We really need to step in.

tl;dr: My friend is giving up his hopes and dreams as an officer in the army for my best friend. She friendzoned him. My friend and I are going to break the news to him that he's friendzoned so he can continue following his dreams.

[Morning in Atlas]

I'm changing anxiety meds. Lexapro is giving me headaches and I don't want to live at a constant 3.

[Morning in Atlas]

As some of you (the IRC crew) know, I've liked this girl for a couple of months. We went to prom together as friends, she's pretty much aware how I feel, and I'm 99% sure she just sees me as a friend, which I can accept. Still, my feelings are bogging me down and probably keeping me from pursuing more...viable relationships. Should I just tell the girl how I feel and that I understand it isn't mutual so as to help let it go?

Bro, just ask her. Don't start presuming, just ask anyway and go after another girl. The biggest mistake I ever made in high school was getting hung up over a girl for two years.

[Morning in Atlas]

As some of you (the IRC crew) know, I've liked this girl for a couple of months. We went to prom together as friends, she's pretty much aware how I feel, and I'm 99% sure she just sees me as a friend, which I can accept. Still, my feelings are bogging me down and probably keeping me from pursuing more...viable relationships. Should I just tell the girl how I feel and that I understand it isn't mutual so as to help let it go?

Bro, just ask her. Don't start presuming, just ask anyway and go after another girl. The biggest mistake I ever made in high school was getting hung up over a girl for two years.

That's probably the best course of action, but on the other hand I feel it could be redundant (again, my infatuation is a terribly-kept secret) and could potentially dent our friendship.

So? You ask her out, there's a 1% chance she says yes. But if you just say "I love you but I know you don't and I'm okay with that" or some corny ish like that, you not only **** up your chances now, but you **** up your future chances with her and anyone she tells. Girls don't care about your personality, your looks, or anything else like that. The #1 feature they look for is confidence.

[Morning in Atlas]

In a nut shell, it's a millennial generation take on unrequited love. Guy develops feelings for a female friend, desires to take it to the next level but is rebuffed with "let's just stay friends." or at least a presumption that such a thing would happen.

More accurately, it's an invention designed by our blubbering, socially incompetent contemporaries to blame their inability to cope with rejection and letdown on society and trivialized versions of people instead of themselves.

More often, it's actually not rejection so much as the fear of rejection that keeps people in the so-called "friend zone". See Snowstalker's example.

It might be because I am just as (if not more) awkward as Snowstalker, but from my perspective his attitude in that situation makes perfect sense. Sure, he could go on and make his feelings known, but why should he if nothing good can possibly come from that?

To get it out of his system and be able to move on.

Thank you, politicus. At worst, she says no, you mope about it for a week or two, and you move on without the feelings. At best, you have a girlfriend.

[Morning in Atlas]

Family gathering, started Lexapro since I found out headaches weren't a side effect. It's screwed with m tolerence.

When I actually use "Bitch I might be" in a conversation" and telling IRC that "I love titties", it's time to stop drinking.

[Morning in Atlas]

I'm ripsh**t and I need the biggest ****ing bottle of Captain Morgan that they have to get over it.

Essentially, I have a little over six weeks to get in a few more financial aid forms (apparently I got randomly selected for verification) so I can get an estimate of how much they will pay me. Then I have to get student loans. FAFSA is done, I just did all the things I need for verification, and all they need is a tax return transcript from my dad. Problem is, Papa Sawx was supposed to have that done two Fridays ago, and it's going to be done around late this week.

Another big problem is, Papa Sawx doesn't take constructive criticism well at all. I go down, remind him of the deadline, and tell him that's it's very urgent. He just goes off and says something to the effect of "It's not my fault, it's the accountant's." (he never told her that I have six weeks) I just tell him that it's absolutely his fault because he never told our accountant to hurry up and that it's urgent. So then, he starts getting angry, and after that, I go from "you need to get this done because I had eight weeks and you pissed away two" to your average Gordon Ramsay tantrum. Cue both of our descents into screaming and insults, and his descent into lies.

After this goes on for about ten more minutes, he then threatens not to do the tax return essentially to spite me. His supposed reasoning was that I "wasn't giving him the quiet to do the form", and after all of it he tried to essentially say he was in the right because "it was an attempt to control the siuation because you were out of control."

I don't know, maybe all of this is why I don't want to go to college in-state, you narcissistic sack of sh**t?

[Morning in Atlas]

And now I'm sick because nobody in this house knows how to cover their  mouth when they're coughing or sneezing.  my life.

[Morning in Atlas]

Sickness update: I just did a self-exam for strep to see if there's white spots or anything. I found one so I asked my mom to double check. I have a horrible gag reflex already and have an even worse one when I'm sick, so around the second time, I wound up puking in my mom's iced tea and on the floor.

It was awful.

[Morning in Atlas]

I'm having a filling and tooth removed tomorrow. The first is okay but I've never had a tooth pulled (though I had wisdom teeth removed under a general anesthetic) so feeling a bit bleaurgh. Still it's only going to cost me 35 pounds.

At 35 pounds I'd expect a guy named Leo with a pair of pliers yanking your tooth.......no novacane either. 

It's the UK I get a young hot dentist and lots of drugs.

I also do in the US.

Actually wisdom tooth surgery is going to suck. It sucks that I have less than two months of summer left before I move, and now I have to spend a goddamn week of that inside like a shut-in. **** my life.

In other news, my dad is still making bullsh**t excuses about why he's dragging his feet on the other form that he hasn't done anything yet (not even for the information he can do right now). I'm really unhappy and about to call him out again.

[Morning in Atlas]

My grandfather passed away early this morning. He had been in failing health for the last few years though.  I saw him last Sunday and he was in good spirits. Pretty peaceful passing, overall.

I'm very sorry to hear that.

Anyways, I've been withdrawing from escitalopram and have been having mood swings for the past week. Today, suicidal thoughts started. Can't wait for this bullsh**t to be over.

[Morning in Atlas]

Tax returns are finally in. The crisis my parents created is over.

Watch out, Pennsylvania. I'm coming in hot.

[Morning in Atlas]

And I'm now relegated to my phone. Part of my laptop keyboard just died so it's relegated to a gaming console right now. If I'm not on here as much that's why.

[Morning in Atlas]

On Monday my psychiatrist gave the the go-ahead to stop taking the antidepressant I was prescribed back in May (I'm still taking the mood stabilizer o/c). Today I started feeling the SSRI Withdrawal and it's pretty much the most annoying thing ever. Like it's not debilitating or anything, it just that every few minutes I feel like my brain got struck by lightning.

Also here's an amusing gif

I've done plenty of drugs in my day. Anti-depressants have the worst withdrawal ever. Ok, so I've never done heroin or cigarettes, and they're probably worse to come off of. But seriously, they suck. And not even helpful beyond placebo levels when one is on them.

I never got any brain shocks when I withdrew from escitalopram, but I did get mood swings (that I've even taken out on a forum member once) and suicidal thoughts at times. It was a bad, bad time. I might transition to Zoloft, no idea if that's going to work.

Anyways, I'm going to PA next week, so feel free to hit me up. I want to visit family and friends and I might pay my school a visit. Might hit up Wildwood too.

[Morning in Atlas]

Well, I'm currently without a laptop. It's getting fixed now, and my only connection to Atlas is my iPad. I REALLY want to use this time to leave the house, so it's just a matter of getting my mother out of here. She's trying to get me to stay holed up here because "I have my iPad and my phone, so I'll be fine without a laptop". Between the fact that she doesn't like leaving the house and my dad is busy working, I'm not exactly optimistic on actually seeing somewhere else.

[Morning in Atlas]

Between the fact that she doesn't like leaving the house

Can I wask why?  That seems unusual for a relatively younger woman.

Tiredness after a busy day. She's not "relatively younger", and if anything she's closer to your age than mine.

[Morning in Atlas]

I've decided to begin applying for faculty positions in east and southeast Asia.  I don't want to disclose exactly where at the moment, but I'm going to try to become an ex-pat again soon.  I'd really like something to happen here, so please wish me luck.

Good luck!

Anyways, I have an ear infection. It sucks.

[Morning in Atlas]

Just touched down here in Pennsylvania. Mom and Dad are off to parent orientation, and I want to visit my family. Plus I get to meet my grandma's boyfriend.

Avatar's changed because let's face it: Phil and Grumps are much better company to be in than koenkai and Darryl W. Perry.

[Morning in Atlas]

I'm back in NH. I was in PA for the weekend visiting family and hit up a few grad parties on the way (cancelled the visit to college, turned out it was more of a parent thing than a student thing so I just decided to go to my cousin's party and catch up with the whole family down there). They're all fighting over me now, and I couldn't be happier.

[Morning in Atlas]

Last therapist appointment. Bill paid today. Watch out Pennsylvania, I'm coming in hot.

[Morning in Atlas]

I was the victim of a HORRIBLE prank Saturday night. My brothers asshole friend decided to pull up a fake porn site invented by 4chan. Before I could stop him, he searched “Lolita” which I knew was a tern bound to pull up illegal content. Sure enough, a warning came up saying my IP was logged and that the FBI would be notified. Not knowing what to do, I panicked, went into IRC chat to explain the situation (hoping that a government agent would be watching the conversation) and spent all Sunday waiting nervously for the police to raid my house. Nothing happened, and I later found out that this was not a real website. I was and am furious; I almost had a complete breakdown to the point that among the many, many options I was considering was voluntarily committing myself to a psychiatric hospital to preempt the police, who were obviously NOT looking for me.

Is it wrong that I laughed at this?

I was in IRC when it happened. I laughed my ass off to his face, considering years of 4chan tipped me off to the prank years ago.

[Morning in Atlas]

So, I have a more lighthearted story. A few weeks ago I was out with the guys and after our friend's grad party we all decided to go out for wings. After eating we decide to walk around because we needed some stuff, and we went to a few stores on the way. In one of our regular stops I was looking for posters for my dorm, and I was spending a bit too much time looking at the ones with girls. My friend is eagerly peering over my shoulder like a kid in a candy store, as he usually does with anything sexual, and I'm nodding along. Then, I hear a voice asking me if we're finding everything okay...

I turn around to realize that my high school crush has been watching me and my friend stare at a poster of two girls making out.

[Morning in Atlas]

So, I have a more lighthearted story. A few weeks ago I was out with the guys and after our friend's grad party we all decided to go out for wings. After eating we decide to walk around because we needed some stuff, and we went to a few stores on the way. In one of our regular stops I was looking for posters for my dorm, and I was spending a bit too much time looking at the ones with girls. My friend is eagerly peering over my shoulder like a kid in a candy store, as he usually does with anything sexual, and I'm nodding along. Then, I hear a voice asking me if we're finding everything okay...

I turn around to realize that my high school crush has been watching me and my friend stare at a poster of two girls making out.

Not sure if that's good or bad (I'd assume bad, so sorry bro. ) but it's a pretty good story to retell at parties and stuff.

It's still good. I just pokerfaced it and just played it off like nothing was happening. She was like OH MY GOD SAWX IT'S GREAT TO SEE YOU and lit up like the old days. Then my fing friend didn't get the memo and made his move while she was talking to me.

[Morning in Atlas]

One more day in New Hampshire.

[Morning in Atlas]

Well, today is the day of the move. The car is loaded, my mom is helping me, and by tomorrow, I will become this forum's newest Pennsylvanian! I can hardly wait to become a college student. My itinerary shall be as follows:

0100 - Stop watching the Boston Red Sox beat down the San Francisco Giants
0200 - Brief Relaxation
0230 - Go to bed
0730 - Wake up
0745 - Stop pissing around and get out of bed
0750 - Take a massive Wiz Khalifa and sh**t
0800 - Shower
0815 - Shave
0830 - Pack
0900 - Breakfast
0930 - Leave the house
1000 - Change my avatar to D-PA
1230 - Hopefully meet my friend for lunch
1315 - Leave lunch
1545 - Cross into PA
1600 - Arrive at aunt's
1700 - Dinner

I don't know the rest, but tomorrow I will become a Pennsylvanian!