Update for Everyone VII: Insert Something Philosophical Sounding Here

[FEMA Camp Administrator]

Ended my time on nights in glory as I picked up 12 hours OT this weekend.

[Santander]

Pretty cool view. Disney fireworks from my room.

[HillGoose]

I was talking about how I always get along better with girls than I do with guys bcuz it's less drama and my roommate said "hot dog flying down a hallway" and I asked her what that meant and she said I was the one who told her that term in the first place but idk how bcuz I don't even know what it means and now I am confused.

I must have too much slang terms if I'm forgetting them.

[Co-Chair Bagel23]

So the weather has been cold for me in Dallas, and with that comes warmer clothing. Some days, today being one of them, I will wear a hat. I never really cared much for beanies and baseball caps and cowboy hats are not warm enough, and any tweed hat or fedora is just yikes (especially a fedora). So when my dad was in Pakistan a few winters back and was about to come home and asked if I wanted anything, I said yeah get me one of those pakols, if anything it would be a fun gift. My dad and uncle (well my dad’s first cousin but he’s basically an uncle) thought it was a great idea and just picked one up at a stall in Lahore on the way to the airport. I did not wear it often much as I hardly was outside for a couple years, and even considered giving it away but kept it around in some storage drawer because I thought it was cool. Well, I get into college, and there is a lot more walking and being outside in the cold, so I wear some hats but I did not really like any of them too much for various reasons, so I just put on the pakol one day (a few weeks ago around mid october). Well, I ended up liking it and thought it was the best and most practical hat I’ve worn after a few days and it made my dad and uncle happy, so I just wear it a lot when it’s going to be cold outside and I will be out that day. 99%+ of people leave me be as I just mind my own business, with maybe 2-3 people a week just saying cool hate or whatever, and around one person every couple of weeks that says like that’s the most retarded thing I’ve ever seen get out of America, or today someone is like staring at me for 10 seconds and then is like where are you from, and I was like Dallas, and he’s like no where are you really from and points to the hat (at which point I just take it off) , and I was like fine, my dad is from Pakistan, but I just like wear this hat I’m not a pashtu *cuts me off before I can finish* says something like, yeah figures, all them people from Afghanistan and Pakistan wear those, bye. Well, I have the good fortune of being white here so I’m not painting myself as some victim because I am not, as I can just take it off and blend in and forget about it. But what about people who are not fortunate like me? What about my friends who I watched get yelled at, pack ur bags and go back to Pakistan (ok that’s clever and sorta funny I’ll give him that), or my dad who was denied service at restaurants in Eastern TN, and had stuff like “go home sand(n word) beggars” carved into his door, or another first cousin once removed was just eating at a restaurant in Wyoming and was just stood over by some dude breathing over him until he left, along with all of those people plus many more who get asked where are you *really* from every few weeks at an absolute minimum,  etc etc. I’ll be blunt, this does not happened often, and the people who do things like that are a very small percentage of the population, but I draw three things. One, I am d@mned lucky to be white and have a choice to blend in, since even an incident or two can suck pretty bad, two I really feel bad for people who cannot do that, three despite whatever small quantity of nastiness may still exist, it does exist, and things are not really 100% equal and perfect, being white here is still a benefit for now. Idk.

[I Can Now Die Happy]

I was talking about how I always get along better with girls than I do with guys bcuz it's less drama and my roommate said "hot dog flying down a hallway" and I asked her what that meant and she said I was the one who told her that term in the first place but idk how bcuz I don't even know what it means and now I am confused.

I must have too much slang terms if I'm forgetting them.

I get along much better with women than with men, because the latter get jealous and insecure far too easily around me. Men need to stop being so fragile.

[America Needs a 13-6 Progressive SCOTUS]

Its miserable to be so exhausted that one falls asleep at 4:00 pm only to wake up feeling fully awake in the middle of the night.

[FEMA Camp Administrator]

Its miserable to be so exhausted that one falls asleep at 4:00 pm only to wake up feeling fully awake in the middle of the night.

I just switched from night shift to day shift on Monday and I definitely feel ya there.

[Santander]

Off to see my parents.

[I Can Now Die Happy]

Off to see my parents.

Do you think they love you? I sometimes suspect mine don't.

[Mad Deadly Worldwide Communist Gangster Computer God]

I have officially come out as asexual/aromantic.  I had been at a stage in my life where I wished I was asexual, mostly as a shield from all the harm and anxiety that comes with romance and intimacy, but after years of prayer and contemplation, I've come to the point where I can accept it as part of my identity.  I feel like I can finally live my life without the pressure of finding a romantic partner.  Sex has mattered less and less to me as I've gotten older.  I'm 25 now, and I've never had my first kiss let alone a sexual experience with another person.  But I realize now that none of that matters.  I don't need love in my life.  I don't need to compromise my own independence by tethering myself to someone else.  This is God's plan for me, and now I'm fully content with it.

[I spent the winter writing songs about getting better]

I realized today I missed out on an emo achievement.

In 2009 after Dude Fest's final night I immediately left Indianapolis, getting a head start on my trip home. I got a hotel room eventually in Urbana, IL, and the next morning went back on my way until I was back in Minneapolis.

Urbana, IL of course being home to the "American Football house" that appears on their first LP. A now popular tourist destination for emo fans, and in fact was recently rented by some people who threw a house show there!

Hell check out this guy's Halloween costume this year.



But you see, at the time American Football was an obscure even by emo standards band known only for being Mike Kinsella's post-Cap'n Jazz and the third most successful post-Cap'n Jazz band after Joan of Arc and The Promise Ring. They weren't the band of the second wave that most resembled the sound of the emo revival of the 2010s because that hadn't happened yet, and thus hadn't inspired a thousand acoustic covers of Never Meant on YouTube. Therefore I didn't even know the house was in Urbana, nor would I had cared even if I did.

So I didn't visit it. And now I'm thinking I need to rectify that sometime. Seriously in Current Year that place is like the kabbalah for Muslims.

Amazing what you can pass up.

[FEMA Camp Administrator]

Working on my final project and I somehow break the computer by pressing ctrl and scrolling simultaneously at an inopportune time. I’ve got 3 hours to beat a deadline.

[OSR stands with Israel]

Off to see my parents.

Have fun

[Atlas Has Shrugged]

I have officially come out as asexual/aromantic.  I had been at a stage in my life where I wished I was asexual, mostly as a shield from all the harm and anxiety that comes with romance and intimacy, but after years of prayer and contemplation, I've come to the point where I can accept it as part of my identity.  I feel like I can finally live my life without the pressure of finding a romantic partner.  Sex has mattered less and less to me as I've gotten older.  I'm 25 now, and I've never had my first kiss let alone a sexual experience with another person.  But I realize now that none of that matters.  I don't need love in my life.  I don't need to compromise my own independence by tethering myself to someone else.  This is God's plan for me, and now I'm fully content with it.

TL;DR: You do you. Do what you believe God want you to do. I'm not going to question your identity nor am I challenging it/patronizing it/denying it. I'm just noting that we both have asked ourselves similar questions with diverging answers.

I'll start with some TMI: I've been with ~ten or so women precisely because of the masculine pressure you're talking about, and I regret or wish I could forget like eight of those experiences.

I've never been in a real relationship either. After my last fwb-thing I've fully sworn off of random hookups because it only makes you feel worse in the end. Though my casual arrangement with a friend was exactly that - casual - it still meant more and was more pleasurable than anything else I've experienced before. Of course, we weren't officially an item, but if that could feel that right, then just imagine what it'll be like once you've found "the one.'

I know exactly how you feel because I've been there. God is an on time God. He may not come when you want him, but he'll be there right on time. There's someone out there who's been through everything you've been through, who compensates for your weaknesses and completes your strengths. I'm waiting to meet my own version of this person myself. It can be frustrating, but with or without a romantic partner on earth, you'll never be walking alone. I think, ironically, that your decision to finally embrace/surrender to asexuality makes it all the more likely that you'll soon encounter the person you've been waiting for and didn't even know it.

Lastly, there's nothing wrong with being asexual. Don't give in to earthly or fleshly pleasures just for the sake of cheap thrills. And for the love of God, whatever you do, don't hire an escort (I know you're not the type to ever consider that, but still, I stress this for the others reading this post). I knew a guy in college who hired one and it turned into a real horror story. He lost his v-card but he also lost any remaining confidence that could've been mustered to meet an actual girl.

[FEMA Camp Administrator]

No one ever talks about wholesome Sanchez.

Godspeed, Scott.

[Atlas Has Shrugged]

My brother went on a meth fueled binge through three states in a week; last week, he finally surrendered to Christ (or so he told me) and I've had more hope for him in years. Today, he's coming back to FL to detox again.

Minutes ago, we received a call from the Fort Worth police. When I heard him identify himself through my dad's phone bluetooth as a sheriff, my stomach dropped. This was it. This was supposed to be the call I've been dreading. Instantly, I knew he had gone off on one final bender before leaving and it killed him. But that was not the case - apparently, he left detox several days ago (I knew this) and they only just now listed him as a missing person. WTAF? He's missing for days and they only tell us now? Of course we know where he actually is and can verify he's still alive, but I'm still shaking.

If my brother did not find Jesus last week, I am 100% convinced that the call would have been different.

[HillGoose]

Wat would u guys do if u was at Walmart and u went in the car repair aisle near the back of the store and u saw someone streaming them self on the gram snorting 5 to 7 packets of diablo hot sauce from Taco Bell

[Santander]

Back to the office. Unfortunately, I spent basically the entire weekend stuck indoors doing homework. Also, yes, I occasionally fly poverty class. And yes, that is a Canadian French keyboard - the best keyboard there is.

[KoopaDaQuick 🇵🇸]

And yes, that is a Canadian French keyboard - the best keyboard there is.

As someone who types in French once in a blue moon, Canadian French keyboards > European French keyboards. Although part of that is because the AZERTY layout is too foreign for me.

[Co-Chair Bagel23]

#populist hands.

[Atlas Has Shrugged]

My kidney issue is a lot more serious than I thought apparently and my physician just told me that I need to see a urologist urgently.

[HillGoose]

Back to the office. Unfortunately, I spent basically the entire weekend stuck indoors doing homework. Also, yes, I occasionally fly poverty class. And yes, that is a Canadian French keyboard - the best keyboard there is.

yo brah what M&A recruiters should I connect with on LinkedIn

[Santander]

yo brah what M&A recruiters should I connect with on LinkedIn

Just put yourself out there brah. Start small and fight your way to where you want to be.

[Santander]

Ugh, emergency travel. Only silver lining is that I got to hang out in the Qantas Club.

[RINO Tom]

^ I have never been so "swept off my feet" by a city as I have with Prague.  Not that I wasn't expecting a cool city, but I guess I was never aware of how happening it actually was.  Cheap as HELL, too.