I went out to dinner with a bunch of friends tonight, and one of my friends said that he was going on a date with the girl I secretly have very strong feelings for. I did my best to play it cool for the next hour, but I am shaken right now. I know I should be happy for him and hope it goes well, but I am secretly hoping it doesn't go well for them, as terrible as that is.
I talked about it with one of my other friends who was there (and didn't know I had feelings for her) for about half an hour on the phone afterwards. I prayed about it vigorously before I went to bed, that God would at least free me of my feelings for her if a relationship with her is not in His will. But, I can't sleep or get my mind off of it.
As Middle School as this sound, I think you're gonna have to tell both your friend who is going on the date with said girl and said girl about your feelings for her. It's ok to hope that it doesn't go well for them, that's jealousy the good thing is that you feel bad for thinking like that, you really care about your friends. Just be honest and be yourself bro.
