Grumpier Than Uncle Joe
GM3PRP
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« on: December 12, 2016, 10:27:49 AM » |
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No I'm not afraid, but I"m sure as hell in no hurry......
33 years ago this month, in a dingy hospital room in a very old section of the Cleveland Clinic, death and I got a tad too close. I was fully expecting never to leave there, under my own power I mean. After a month of declining a literal last minute surgery saved my bacon.
It's too hard to describe, but there is an "acceptance" if you will, or there was for me, but I wouldn't call it a peace or anything like that.....you just deal with what you think is inevitable. Perhaps because I just felt I'd better accept it, because thinking about leaving a wife and 2 year old behind was wearing on me as much as my physical ailments.
When the time comes I hope I don't have to go through the thought process of dying again.......just end it fast, please.
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