GlobeSoc
The walrus
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« on: August 16, 2018, 10:47:46 PM » |
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I am posting this in the us general discussion board so that this gets more attention, even though it's technically off-topic
Over the past week, I have discovered a variety of issues both in myself and my environment. The root cause of all of these issues is that my father is very likely to have NPD. I didn't figure it out because he has put up a front for the last several years. Most of the memories that would have helped me figure it out were repressed, and I didn't think about the ones that weren't because I didn't have a reason to, and thought he was operating in good faith.
When I was a child, he would regularly spank me for seemingly arbitrary reasons, including one case where I didn't retrieve an item fast enough, and whenever I cried(to the point where I am unable to now). His final act to hurt me was emotionally abusing me during a messy divorce period, after which my mom, who I was staying with during and afterwards thought that I needed a therapist. He used whatever financial and legal power he had to block the idea. This is probably the number one cause of my mental problems, including a possible case of depression. The abuse stopped afterwards, even though I was visiting him every so often because I had to. That was the worst of it for me, but not in general. At least, that's what I can figure out upon present reflection. He would be very likely to block an attempt to get a therapist again, especially since my mom doesn't have the money to do so herself.
A few years later, a stepmother came into the picture, with a number of stepchildren. They seemed relatively normal. However, a couple of days ago my stepsisters came forward to me and explained their situation. Apparently, my father is sexually and emotionally abusing them in a variety of ways, with their mother enabling and doing some gaslighting and other manipulation herself. Nearly no-one believes them when they attempt to explain the situation to them, especially since my father is relatively charismatic and wealthy.
He doesn't know that I know about the present situation, let alone believe it.
As far as why I'm posting this in a political forum of all places, I have two reasons. The first is that posting this on a less obscure platform would have a higher risk of doxing. They second is that politics was one of the only rewarding things I have in my life right now, with little to no effort involved to get into the hobby, only an internet connection and some google searches. Seeing the machine of the world turn, with myself as part of it, somehow was a soothing idea. Indeed, casting my first ballot back in march was one of the only times where I felt genuinely good in the last year or so.
To end, I have two "simple" questions: How do I move on from my past situation under my current constraints, and how do I help my stepsisters with their current situation?
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