Update for Everyone VI: What Is and What Should Never Be

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7) omegascarlet - 69

Jesus, I didn't realize I had that many posts there. TBH I should probably start purging.

[Since I'm the mad scientist proclaimed by myself]

7) omegascarlet - 69

Jesus, I didn't realize I had that many posts there. TBH I should probably start purging.

Correction: I need to purge from my entire posting history.

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I hate weekends. They always mess me up and make things feel all surreal and awful.

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I wonder what would be easier: slashing one's wrists or simply overdosing pills. Hard to decide indeed. Damn Christmas.

Oh my god please don't.

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Going to try attempt number two to appeal my permanent ban from Israel or its territory to try for once in my life to visit relatives.

Why were you banned?

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Reposting from discord

Found a random reddit post about a person going through an awful time crying out for help that my emotions suspect is someone I know (TBF their username has the persons first name on it, but its a commonish name) even though logicallly its not super likely.

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I have a minor concussion and probably shouldn't post too much.

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My parents are holding me prisoner by refusing to let me visit a friend who moved to college (which is about 3-4 hours from where I live) earlier this month who is starving herself and considering suicide, so I'm really getting ing sick of their goddamn controlling bullsh**t. I'm extremely stressed out because I don't know if she'll be alive for much longer and I don't want her to go back to her abusive ex-boyfriend and I'm just extremely scared and anxious at the moment. Me and my parents used to have a good relationship, but now they act like totally different people. I have almost no way to get to her unless I want to spend money on an overpriced bus (literally would cost me $100 roundtrip and I'd need to pay for an uber to get to where she is)

Oh, and my ongoing mental breakdown is getting worse because of this

Bite the bullet and pay it. Also probably try to cut off your parents as soon as you can.

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In other news, I am now convinced that nobody in my family will be alive by the end of this year, and I'll have nobody to blame for it but myself.

What happened?

[Since I'm the mad scientist proclaimed by myself]

In other news, I am now convinced that nobody in my family will be alive by the end of this year, and I'll have nobody to blame for it but myself.

What happened?

Well, I was watching the Mick when my sibling came into the room, and due to their aversion to vomit, I warned them since Mickey was trying to get Ben to throw up a balloon full of what is assumed to be heroin, they should probably leave the room. A few minutes later, my dog (downstairs) had gone berserk and bit my sibling's hand. Nobody died (yet), but I'm still freaking out, so here we are.

Oh dear...

[Since I'm the mad scientist proclaimed by myself]

In other news, I am now convinced that nobody in my family will be alive by the end of this year, and I'll have nobody to blame for it but myself.

What happened?

Well, I was watching the Mick when my sibling came into the room, and due to their aversion to vomit, I warned them since Mickey was trying to get Ben to throw up a balloon full of what is assumed to be heroin, they should probably leave the room. A few minutes later, my dog (downstairs) had gone berserk and bit my sibling's hand. Nobody died (yet), but I'm still freaking out, so here we are.

Oh dear...

What's going to happen to the dog?

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I ended up moving to a different seat on the bus because I saw a girl across from me staring at me and I thought she was creeped out our disgusted at me but then a bit later that girl moved right next to me (it was two chairs facing forward) and I know she was staring for at least a little bit while next to me. The seat next to my new seat was occupied for a bit and I don't know how long it was unoccupied before she moved. I initially got on after her. I don't know how to feel about this.

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If all goes well I'm going to be not posting on Atlas anymore.

[Since I'm the mad scientist proclaimed by myself]

If all goes well I'm going to be not posting on Atlas anymore.

Any particular reason why?

Atlas is kind of a coping mechanism/escape for me, and its been helpful often, but I'm not sure I'd actually enjoy/care about it if the sudden change in my life pans out. I might drop by from time to time, but IDK.

If all goes well I'm going to be not posting on Atlas anymore.

Will you stick around AAD?

Probably not.

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Today swung between good and bad pretty wildly.

As always, my ability to launch into full panic attack mode over absolutely nothing never ceases to amaze me.

That really isn't fun...

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I googled "did mommy rape me" for weird personal reasons, and the results are all f**king porn.

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I googled "did mommy rape me" for weird personal reasons, and the results are all f**king porn.

Why?!!?

[Since I'm the mad scientist proclaimed by myself]

I googled "did mommy rape me" for weird personal reasons, and the results are all f**king porn.

Why?!!?

You're seriously wondering whether your mom raped you? 

Yeah... It's weird.

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Just learned that someone who used to be my friend isn't anymore. It's probably for a good reason, but I don't know it.

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There was a Lockdown because of an active suspect or something at my school.

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There was a Lockdown because of an active suspect or something at my school.

Sounds like it was a prank call.

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I'm feeling loopy and less fast mentally after hitting my head on my door. I've been here before, it should clear up in a few days, but it kinda lowkey sucks.

...I'm gonna have to take a break for a while. To put it lightly, and it's all my own carelessness, but that doesn't mean it don't hurt, but I'm a bit behind on one class and a bit scared that I may have to withdraw...I dunno. I'm mostly on top of things with the other classes.

Between that, and other routines taking up time, and the lack of stuff to talk about now that all the nominees are in...

It's just time. I need to be off for at least a good month.

Good luck with life!

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I think I'm infatuated with a girl I half met at a club yesterday. I like this attraction, it doesn't feel as weird as previously.

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I started crying at lunch and literally no one in my friend group said anything. And I know for a fact that several of them saw me cry.

[Since I'm the mad scientist proclaimed by myself]

I started crying at lunch and literally no one in my friend group said anything. And I know for a fact that several of them saw me cry.

What a bunch of d!cks; are you ok? Do you want to private message me anything? And, Scarlet, your sig, it ain't true. Talk to me.

I'm betterish now. I just feel generally not okay and am anxious that I've messed things up in my friend group, especially with one particular person.