Update for Everyone VI: What Is and What Should Never Be

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The word.

Give me that sweet sweet data.

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I tried to quit smoking and got about two weeks without it. I went back today, my mood has been terrible and I've been constantly edgy and anxious without my nicotine fix. I'll probably try again around the holidays. We'll see.

Good job on two weeks. My father could never get past day three. Good luck on your next try.

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The word.

Give me that sweet sweet data.

Again, split up into 10-pages blocks

Most posts per block:

1-10: Antonio (20)
11-20: Cathcon (28)
21-30: Peebs (35)
31-40: Cathcon (38)
41-50: Cathcon (27)
51-60: Cathcon (20)
61-70: Jacobin (17)
71-80: Cathcon (27)

Most posts in first half (1-40):
Cath 107
Peebs 83
Kal 63
Tony 61
Sanchez 44

Most posts in second half (41-80):
Cath 88
Kal 67
Sanchez 55
Peebs 51
Scott 43
Jacobin 42
Sunrise 41

Aw, I was hoping my name would pop up again...

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How many posts did I have?

31

I got 52, get at my level.

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I just asked out the cute girl at the liquor store. She kinda waffled in answering. Turns out she's thirty. Now I kinda want her more.

What do you mean "waffled"?

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I hit 4000 posts, and I am an hour from having a month online.

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Haven't done one of these for a while.

Had an awful seminar group this morning for History; the topic was relatively interesting (the decline of Working Class identity) but it just ended up being an argument about how someone made a garbled comment about female voters not caring about the Economy. The seminar group seems very passive aggressive in a very public school way.

I've had the impending doom of trying to do my dissertation, my weekly reading and graduate job applications. I'm going to apply for an internship in Ed Miliband's office, but it requires a 3,000 word essay by Wednesday about inequality which will take out a day of my weekend. I feel that no matter how much reading/working/revision I do every week I find that I'm still running behind.

I've managed to quit smoking, go jogging every two days and am going to spend next weekend at home, and hopefully see some close friends to try and sort this crap out.

Sounds like you're handling it pretty well, but it is stressful. Good luck, man.

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Last night, I discovered that dancing is very good for your soul.

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Spent the whole week depressed, angry, and generally dysfunctional. It came to a head when I ruined an event I like going to. I'm gonna try my hardest to beat this, now. I want this part of my life to be permanently behind me.

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Might be able to start seeing a shrink soon, which might be nice.

Awesome, I hope he/she is a good one.

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I have a boyfriend now

Congrats on the boyfriend!

Ditto

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My depression and anxiety seem to be worsening again.  

Same, but I think I can handle it and not spiral. I take it as a turning point in my life; after this everything will be different and I think I'll be changed for the better.
If you want to talk, I will.

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Last night was the first time I got a good night's sleep in at least a month, and the first time I slept at night in like two or three nights.

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Some of you know that I dabble in music making sometimes.  I usually don't share my work with the forum, but this one is hardly my own work (it's a remix I just spent all of last night on), so for anyone who cares, here's my first remixed song.

(Original song is Saying Sorry by Hawthorne Heights.)

I will listen to it tonight.

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My author copies arrived at last.

nice, nice.

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In 6 hours I leave for the airport to fly to Green Bay to meet my girlfriend. We’ve been together for several months now and we finally get to meet in person. I’m pretty anxious about it, but also very excited that I get to spend a week with the person who makes me so damn happy.

Awesome, man! Good luck, and enjoy your stay.

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Things are starting to look up again. We'll see how long that lasts.

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I haven't been on for the last bunch of days. Because I got a new job, and it takes a lot of time.

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Tripped on a girl's feet on my way to lunch today. Flew what felt like 20 feet, but I still stuck the landing with my food intact.

At that point, you wink and walk away while putting on shades. Then The Who starts playing.

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My girlfriend’s mom is incredibly abusive and controlling. Today, she took her phone and turned off the WiFi. So, worried about her, I texted her mom to give her a chance to let me speak with my girlfriend before I called the police for a welfare check. She ignored me, so I called the police and they went to their house. They called me and informed me she’s alright and that her mom was intentionally ignoring my texts. Well, I’m getting her a phone on my contract for Christmas and sending it tomorrow and texted her mom that if she takes that phone from her, which is in my mom’s name, I’ll have charges pressed against her for theft.

Way to go, dude. If more people had the guts to stand up to bullies and abusers, the world would be a much better place.

Yeah, way to go. Good job on standing up for her, what you're doing is brave and smart.

Dude, that's awesome! And I hope it works out for the best. Good job.

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I'm so busy that I finally got a moment to rest, and I'm spending it worrying about what I might've missed.

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Last night, I made myself some cookies and poured myself a glass of milk. Right before I could enjoy it, I got distracted with another task, and the snack was gone by time I got back. Someone broke into my apartment, and ate all my cookies!!

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I was completely overwhelmed for most the day, but I've calmed down a bit, and taken some semblance of control over my head once more.

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So, for Christmas, I got two chocolate Santa's that are roughly the height of my own head. I thought "who could possible eat so much chocolate?"
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I ate both in one sitting.

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The fact that this new way of thinking has come around a New Year is purely coincidental, but I've been slowly caring about myself more and more, and have become more aware of other's pain. I'm ready to take back my life, and become the person I've dreamed about being. From this point on, I'm a new person. Not because of a holiday, but because of the work I've put into change. Thank you to everyone who has been patient with me over the years, including many posters here who have helped me see my short comings and have been essential to me correcting them, I won't let you down.