Update for Everyone VI: What Is and What Should Never Be

[bagelman]

I had a weird dream involving Trump becoming part of my immediate family, forcing me to maintain a generally positive opinion of his presidency to maintain harmony. I've had dreams about him before, like the one where he became my boss, forcing me to move to Miami and swim in the water pipes to lay down morter or something. In this dream, I just made casual conversation with him before he went to work in the White House and after he left sat down and watched some Jimmy Neutron cartoons - reanimated for nostalgia seeking people of my generation. The first episode was about the kids rehearsing for an important school play backstage. The new animations made all the kids sound like robots when moving around.

In the latter halve of this dream, I went to this gaming nightclub in a nightlife oriented resort town. The big attraction was a game played in a movie theater about playing a superhero who gets transformed into a human animal hybrid as part of the storyline. Each animal has different advantages and disadvantages.

The club was segregated into male and female sectors, although there was no restriction on going into either sector. In order to transfer between sectors, you could ride the transportation through a U shaped corridor which was an indoor (and very dark) water park - or you could just go outside and enter into the other door (spending ~15 seconds outside in winter). The women's half was well lit, cold, and included various shoppes and stalls and it was fairly crowded. The men's half was less crowded, comfortably warmer, and the lighting often changed colors for a party atmosphere. There were no distractions here besides a drinking fountain, bathrooms, and a vending machine, and a janitor. The crowd was found inside the movie theater where everyone was playing the game. I sat down there, where it was implied that I would be spending most of the night watching others play.

[bagelman]

I tried to quit smoking and got about two weeks without it. I went back today, my mood has been terrible and I've been constantly edgy and anxious without my nicotine fix. I'll probably try again around the holidays. We'll see.

Good job on two weeks. My father could never get past day three. Good luck on your next try.

Thanks man. I always hear that the first month is the hardest.

Have you tried anything like nicotine patches or whatnot, or was it just cold turkey?

[bagelman]

I've been having heartburn nightly at this rate. I hope I don't have an ulcer or something stupid.

When I left high school for college, Obama was running for reelection. I've had a lot of misadventures in college - I've always been a commuter student, I suffered from clinical depression from the beginning that was unmedicated for 2.5 years. When I went to an LGBT social club, I just sat through people presenting slideshows on how there are 30 genders or whatever, my strongest emotion being intimidated at the man talking about how he secretly had HIV and if anyone told anyone bad things would happen. The overenthusiastic moderator also threatened violence against anyone who would cause trouble for the LGBT community. I didn't make a single friend there. At the other social club, a generic meet new people club, I met one guy who aspired to work as part of a kitchen staff on a cruise ship. I paid way too much money to try his nachos made at a on-campus restaurant in the seediest dorm on campus. He either didn't do them well or didn't have good ingredients to work with. He left for culinary school and I never saw him again.

At one point in college I was taking some electives to "find myself" (I know now this was dumb) and I took a class on Biomaterials. It was a senior level class that I knew pretty quickly I would never have a chance at passing, but I wasn't able to drop it because I thought that if I dropped the class I would lose all fiscal aid. The college advisors implied this would happen. Nobody really gave me any advice either way. The professor barely spoke English - she saw me for who I was, a lost underclassmen who wasn't worth wasting time even acknowledging, and dutifully failed me as part of her paperwork.

By the last semester at university, which of course is not the college I go to now, my depression was so bad I was completely set up to fail. I tried a last ditch effort to make a friend at college, a transgender girl I met on the internet. We talked a bit then left. I tried to arrange another hangout, but she wasn't interested. Fair enough.

My weirdest story came from this doomed semester. One gray day, I decided that because we have no money and my grades weren't great I needed to limit my diet. So I walked several blocs through the dingy road leading into Akron's east side at went to the local grocery to buy apple sauce. I bought a big bottle of apple sauce, which I decided was the only food I needed. It was the holiest of holy foods.

[bagelman]

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I am very interested in where this is going.

hope your heartburn gets sorted out.  It's rough to have to deal with that, I know from experience.

It's better now, but I need to watch what I eat. No more super-spicy chili.

[bagelman]

Some meaningless math to distract you: You will be 39 in 2040, I will be 47.

[bagelman]

Got a pretty good picture:



Security was absolutely airtight so I didn't even try meeting her.

Why does she need airtight security even now? She's no president now. Typical elites.

[bagelman]

Got a pretty good picture:

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Security was absolutely airtight so I didn't even try meeting her.

Why does she need airtight security even now? She's no president now. Typical elites.

She's entitled to Secret Service protection being a spouse of a former president, and plus she needed to be protected from MAGA thugs roaming around Charlottesville. Plebeians wouldn't understand. Strongly approve.

Hmm, you probably wouldn't have responded like that if you weren't born in a 5 bedroom manor with your own private gardener and maid. If your house is older, it might have been a plantation back in the days of slavery. How about that.

But whatever. Since you're just concern trolling as usual, and concern trolling doesn't belong in this thread, I'll accept the part in bold as your real answer.

 

[bagelman]

In other news, I'm gonna fail my f[inks]ing computer class because I put cable management too early.

The computer class I took in high school was taught by a lady who had a blog. She had a blog. She was with the times. You could tell by her blog. On her blog, she blogged. She knew the word blog. She had posts on her blog. Her blog was on the internet.

HEY! Bagelman! I told you to open the internet, not Firefox! Everyone, listen to me. I've showed you Google. Now, lets look at another search engine, Yahoo. Yahoo ^{also provides news and the weather and}

[bagelman]

Life is boring. Can't think about anything but class divide. My boring busywork mandatory learn Microsoft office computer class at community college makes me feel like I'm the secretary of a bay area rich boy company making notes of transactions of million dollar houses while I live in an apartment in, uhh, whereever the proles live in that area idk. At least I'm not in the the Oakland ghetto in this bad daydream.

[bagelman]

The start of 2018 so far has been barely short of a nightmare.

[bagelman]

browsing atlas and its sister forum (now forums) makes me feel poor

[bagelman]

And now I've been pulled from my Spanish class until August because I said the teacher I had this semester didn't want me sending in my objectivos online. I need to learn to keep my big mouth shut.

uhhh

1. Your Spanish teacher doesn't want to accept online assignments
2. You mention this.
3. You are pulled from your Spanish class as a punishment.

This doesn't make sense.

[bagelman]

Decided to start looking at colleges. Why the hell does everything cost money?

If nothing costed money, it would have no worth. The beautiful necklace that you find on the ground would mean nothing. It was free for the person who got it first, too.

Yoga classes wouldn't be fun, there's a high probability that there'd be random, possibly homeless people in there, taking up the space of someone who worked for the money to pay for the class.

There'd be no class system. First class people would blend right in with the lower class, and working class would probably not have any incentive to work at all, seeing as they don't need money to buy something that's free.

I guess it's just about the economy. We gotta keep it alive by making the people drive for something. You want that 2017 Mazda? Work for and pay for it.

You want to get into that nice college? Work for and pay for it. Oh, you need to get into the college to get the high paying job? And you're wondering why Rich Ricky over there, who's father is old friend with the dean, gets in with lower grades than you? Ummmm

[bagelman]

If I don't graduate from community college with an AD and get into normal college and get a BD I'm going to be 30+ working the same busywork warehouse picking job I do now. I have little passion for anything. I'm older than Jacobin American and also still only have a LP.

I've been looking at environmental science for a while now. Spent like a year in Environmental Health and Safety which turned out to be completely different. Signed up for a climate studies class and the prof linked to this quiz. Just look at it.

So I was taking the class and one of the homework assignments required me to use a government website to analyze weather data. So I went to the website and got an error after 5-10 minutes of waiting. Minutes. Needed to get data from other sources, got a poorer grade then I should've because I was given questions specific to a service that seemed to be getting DDOS'd. Also got a poorer grade then I should've on all other assignments so far this semester in all classes. For my stats test I came in very tired and hungry, and didn't notice 2 extra questions.

I'm an hour through this, and I've listened to this at least 10 times front to back. I've been telling myself to take up writing as a hobby for over 2 years.

[bagelman]

I really hope we sell our house for as much money as we can before a recession hits. Mom can't afford gas or groceries anymore, so I have to provide, cutting that much deeper into the savings I've been hoping to use for a car (honestly a minor concern at the moment).

We also have to dig through the house to sell jewelry. I haven't been catching up with precious metal prices anytime recently, but I hope they're somewhat high like the stock market is.

[bagelman]

dawg

Yes?

If it makes you feel better, I didn’t want to delete it—I was curious as to why AAD was desperate for members.

http://atlasafterdark.freeforums.net/thread/3567/stat-watcher-january-2018-update?page=10

[bagelman]

dawg

Yes?

If it makes you feel better, I didn’t want to delete it—I was curious as to why AAD was desperate for members.

http://atlasafterdark.freeforums.net/thread/3567/stat-watcher-january-2018-update?page=10

Clever ploy to get me to create an account in order to view such a post.

Huh? You already have one.

[bagelman]

So I'm writing a miniature biography of La Follette (Sr.) for my second job. Just want you to know there are a very few possible ways to make money doing this garbage. Also, I do not care one iota about this man.

Would you have voted for the guy?

[bagelman]

I recall getting a decent SAT score and a really good ACT score, but it didn't help me. It's not like I had the wealth to get into a good college even if I had a better GPA and more extracurriculars. 

[bagelman]

As for my life, I went to the art museum twice. Got most of it during the first trip, and went through 19th century-present art on the second time.

[bagelman]

The weather's been the worst. I like winter where it's consistently below freezing, and warmer weather above 50F/10C. I hate everything in between, it's too cold to go outside and too hot for snow, making it ugly indoors weather. This whole month's been like that, it's also barely rained, so I can't even hear the nice rain outside. February was a ping pong game between snowy winter weather and spring with 2-3 60f+ days and a 70f+ day, March has been bland.

[bagelman]

I feel like my post quality has been declining lately. After reading through my old posts, I feel like I’ve come across as a hypocrite. For example, on 2 Kamala Harris threads, I described her as not charismatic or a change agent and then yesterday argued that Kamala Harris wasn’t capable of building a winning coalition. In reality, the latter is the cause of the former but I don’t really do a good enough job staying on message. I also said that in an earlier post that Bernie said economic issues are more important than social issues, and while I’ve been vocal about no more social ultraliberal Dem nominees, I’m really not sure if I personally agree with economic issues are always more important than social issues. I feel it’s more of a false choice partially because the former is more easy to get through Congress for a couple of reasons and since some social issues and some economic issues are more important than other economic issues. I just don’t pay enough attention to detail in my posts I guess.

Don't feel too bad, it's not like people are paying ya to post here.

[bagelman]

What career field, JA?

Community and Social Services. Most of what she applied to were jobs in long-term care facilities and as case managers (such as at DCF). I lean more towards the Social Work side of things, so I know it’ll be a good spot for me too.

MO or KS?

[bagelman]

My mom's okay.  They ended up detaining her for the night.  I didn't even know that was something hospitals could do.  She resisted going in the first place and later told me to never call an ambulance again.  I didn't know what to say to that.

She had a second seizure when they did a scan of her heart, which they're concerned with now but only slightly.  But she regained her consciousness throughout the night, even used scissors from my laptop bag to cut the IV cords.  Seriously, she's got balls that I never will.

Got a ride back from a friend, so I'm home for the night.  I'm beat, but I feel like I should stay up and wait for news.  I don't know.

If there's one thing I do know, it's that staying awake and waiting for news does nothing in the meantime but adds to anxiety and stress.

It's just too bad that getting sleep is really hard in these kind of situations.

[bagelman]

My climate studies prof has been and continues to be a climate change denialist concern troll. He could be plotting to have me fail the class using cleverly hidden assignments as proof (though I have no evidence of this, so hopefully it's just paranoia). This is the field I'm planning on finally getting a bachelor's in.

If actual universities find out about this when I go and transfer, they could transfer fewer credits, forcing me to take more social justice oriented classes to graduate. You don't have to be a rapid Trumpist or even not a rabid left winger to be aggravated about social justice classes required for graduation, simply be from a medicaid household in an age of incredibly overpriced tuition to pay for unnecessary and unwanted amenities like giant stadiums for D list football teams that can only be enjoyed by those rich enough to live on campus.