Are you afraid of death?

[Leinad]

I am insanely terrified of death. The inevitability, the uncertainty, and the finality around the concept have led me to lose sleep on far too many occaisions.

You didn't exist before you were born. Does that trouble you?

Not the one you asked, but it troubles me in the sense that it's impossible to comprehend.

Although the Christian afterlife setup is horrible. Not only do most people end up suffering for somewhat arbitrary reasons (not believing in a book in just the right way), but those lucky few that make the right guess do something that also sounds bad--so you want me to worship a deity I never believed in and don't really like...eternally? Frankly I'd prefer this crappy life to Heaven, at least it's sometimes interesting and I can...er..."relax" in a certain way moral puritans would not approve of.

[Leinad]

I suppose, in a sense, my fear of death might be more a fear of life. Leaving without having done so many things I wanted to do, for one thing, but also an afterlife that's just a combination of boring or miserable things in this life. Maybe my fear of nothingness is due to a longing to have some existential meaning, instead of just being a chemical-driven machine that will eventually stop working with no consequence other than (hopefully, I guess?) "sad" chemicals in people who "cared" for me

Blah, whenever I talk about religion too much it turns into an incoherent therapy session.