Your faith timeline.

[Mr. Smith]

0: Born and blessed
8: Baptized Mormon
9-11: Start questioning the existence of God and despising church, but go through the motions anyway.
12-18: Receive "Lower Priesthood" with some reluctance, but the experiences during those years, good and bad convince me of a God. There are patches of doubt with certain elements, especially as I go through a Catholic school, then read up on other philosophies through high school, and of course the Prop. 8 thing was no walk in the park...but all of it made a certain sense that simple secular/humanist ideologies simply failed at...not that the other religious faiths seemed to answer the questions any better mind you.
18-23: Received "Higher Priesthood" and generally became more conservative, partially in reaction to the less savory elements of socialism/liberalism and internet libertarianism, partially because everything seemed to be working out.
23-24: S&^t hit the fan in bad ways, so I generally went inactive out of spite rather than unbelief...but somehow that made everything worse.
24-Present:  Flickering between activity and inactivity.

[Mr. Smith]

Reality is a scary place

That's reality's problem.

I thought you Christians were supposed to accept the things you cannot change.

And it can't be changed that it's reality's problem that it's scary, it is up to reality to change itself.