I don't think many people really give a sh**t but I saw this thread and it's a good enough venue.
Over the last year I've had more recurrent thoughts about suicide than ever before. Letting go of your own life interests me and I don't hold much against those who believe it's their best option. There was only one point when I came close to actually committing the deed, which was a few years ago when my grades in school plummeted and my social life was virtually nonexistent by that point. The thoughts have sprouted back up again because I've been unhappy with my living situation. At my age, I still live under a household with a man who's directed the worst sort of verbal abuse towards me, and who's constantly undermined my self-esteem, for the last two decades. He's clingy as hell and is doing everything he can to have me remain as his dependent. I don't have the financial resources to live on my own for more than a couple of months yet, so I'm stuck here. There are many days when I feel as if I have little control over my life. I doubt I would act out in any way, but maybe I should seek therapy or something.
Don't be afraid to get help! A therapist can definitely help you get to where you want to be.
