How much do yall weigh?

[HagridOfTheDeep]

I was fat from about age nine to 22. Let me tell you, it is extremely hard being a fat, closeted, gay teenager. I am about 6’0.5”. My highest weight was about 250lbs when I was 16. I switched to diet pop, puberty came on more strongly, and I got down to a pretty stable 210lbs, though I admit I did hit 185/190 during a bout of depression in my first year of university.

At age 22 I decided I hated myself enough to begin losing weight. I did not work out or exercise, because I felt like I was going to die a sweaty mess doing 30 minutes on the TreadClimber, only to neutralize the whole calorie burn after in about 10 seconds by drinking a juice box. Not worth it. Instead, I restricted what I ate, which often meant eating a granola bar for breakfast, nothing for lunch, eating whatever the hell I wanted for dinner, and never snacking. It was not the healthiest way to lose weight, and I almost certainly lost a lot of muscle too, but I actually managed to lose weight at an appropriate pace, which was about 5lbs (maybe a little more) every month.

At my lowest, I got down to about 140lbs. For all you straights, I should clarify that there exists a body state in which one can be “straight skinny” but “gay fat.” I know I was way too skinny at 140lbs, but I was also soft and jiggly. I was not the twink I wanted to be. I did manage to keep the weight off and stay  around 140lbs for a while, but I got to 150 after my first year working.

At that time I decided to begin the journey of working out and putting on muscle. I’m 14 months in with a personal trainer and a decently consistent high-protein/low-fat “clean bulk” diet. Honestly I only average about 2.5 days a week in the gym, so the progress is slower than it should be, but I’m now at just over 165lbs and I think almost all of the weight gain is muscle. I know I will have to “cut” at some point to get ripped, but right now it is really nice to be making and seeing progress.