Indy Texas's life is a miserable, irredeemable mess

[HagridOfTheDeep]

We've talked before about this privately, and I know how you're feeling. I also feel a bit guilty that my life has so drastically turned around for the better since then, but if anything it's a testament to the fact that things can get better. For me, a lot of it was just about giving myself permission to take risks. A year ago I wouldn't have even told a stranger on Grindr my name. Last September I decided to go for it, and now I'm in a relationship with the first person I met in real life who ever knew I was gay. I know it sounds silly, but giving myself permission to take one risk made it easier to take others and seize opportunities, and now I'm so grateful for the growth I've experienced this year. I still get anxious about some social things, but life is good.

I encourage you to start thinking about putting yourself out there and giving yourself permission to be happy. It takes some initiative, but it's so worthwhile. And if you ever need anything (or just want to talk) let me know. Best of luck!