I'm deeply sorry to hear that. You're in my thoughts, of course... It'll be hard for me to sleep this night after reading that (I've said this many times, but I'm too sensitive), so I imagine you will have many, many difficult days... Please, try to be relaxed and think about your father as the great person he was (I know it because he raised a superb son).
I don't know what more to say, but, I hope these days are the least tough it's possible...
Like Kal, I suppose you won't read this anytime soon... But I'm waiting for you to come back here, hein? Life isn't easy, TB, but you're just too good, you need to continue posting in this Forum someday