I just saw a model that predicts 350,000 dead in the US alone by the end of June.
I lost hope I didn't even know I had.
Don't take this the wrong way. I'm only saying this out of love.
Your depression / pessimism / doomsday lust is poisoning your mind. When you find new data or news, the appetite of your doom and gloom is forcing you to put a negative spin on it instead of analyzing the information objectively. You need to starve that s___ out and force yourself into rational analysis despite it no longer being your default psychological algorithm.
Be well and be safe.
I get it. It's difficult to detach yourself from the real loss of life that's occuring from this, but sometimes it's the best option. Of course, not everyone is able to, but for me at least, it's better than giving in to anger and desperation.