Here's a little update:
First of all, I wasn't feeling well this morning, so I had to stay home from work, thus I'm posting at an odd time on a weekday.
It looks very likely that I will be able to see and talk to my fiancee' tomorrow. I'm going to take it upon myself to call her around 9:00 or 9:30 am and get myself over there to see her, so we can talk. At that time, I'll explain my side of the story and then I'll give the floor to her so she can get out whatever is bothering her. I still have faith that our relationship will continue, so I'm not worried. However, though, if it ends, it ends, and I'll collect my belongings and move on. One of the things I'm going to tell her is that I am still 110% committed to this and that every ounce of my being is committed to making things work. Even if that means moving the date of the wedding either forward or backward. I don't know what will transpire tomorrow morning. I do ask for your prayers.
I will also get official confirmation whether she's pregnant or not. If she is, I will start preparing to be a father. If she is not, then we will probably wait until we've actually tied the knot to try it again, even though she will be 31 years old when we're married.
I know I said I would wait one more week until August 1, but I've got to do something. Its been 3 weeks since I've seen her and I'm getting lonely. There is a chance I might be able to at least talk to her tonight around 8 or 9.
Again, good for you for taking the initiative--which ever way things go. If you do stay together, and she isn't pregnant....31 is not by any means ancient when it comes to childbearing age( trust me... I know of what I speak) it really isn't until after 35 they start to worry, and if she doesn't get pregnant right off the bat, you still have time ( plus all the fun trying!). It was good of you to let her have some time,I know it was hard. But it was better for you that you realized that you needed answers as well! I also know it was harder to open your life up on the internet. Good luck! We'll be thinking of you!