Do you go to Hell if you kill yourself?
Usually yes, but decisive is the attitude "behind"/"above" the act.
You do not get punished by HIM with "going to hell" - the lack of GOD is in se the hell. While heaven is nothing else than the visio & fruitio DEI.
The body lives in the soul: Our bodies are bound together in this world, but every soul lives hic et nunc already either in heaven or temporary/eternal hell.
And every person makes inevitably in every moment the choice of being either absolute or relative.
If You take the selfdeication-option of the modern mankind, You are a wealthy master: You have none above You; You know, how the machinery of this universe works. That values like beauty/strenth/... are Your subjective invention. Right, You get insulted now and again by an uncontrolable surrounding, but it cannot really reach and affect You anymore. And out of taedium vitae, out of l'ennui You can commit suicide as the final consequence of Your self-proclaimed absolutism.
Or You take the option of being relative. Of being the per se rightless and poor and failed slave of an untouchable master&monarch. Then Your brain will despise all mechanistical and other ideologies as naive anthropomorphisms; must admit, that axioms are not invented, but only dis-covered by us; that Your life doesn't belong to You, but to Your creator. Your heart will be broken alone by the beauty or strangeness of 1 flower, which can be conquered&destroyed, but neverever reached; You must reflect endlessly on 1 single gesture of 1 primitive nobody.
