The Confession Booth: Post something very personal about yourself

[kcguy]

I was a member of the Earth expedition ship, the Icarus, which was dispatched on a research mission to Z'ha'dum late in 2256.  While on the expedition, we inadvertently awakened an ancient race known as the "Shadows", whereupon all of us on the expedition were either killed or made servants of the Shadows.  I pledged to serve the Shadows in any way they asked.

At the request of my associates, I recruited Centauri Ambassador Londo Mollari to entangle the Centauri in an alliance, helping them to make war on the Narn.  I am thus indirectly responsible for the conquest of the Narn Regime, the destruction of their homeworld, and the enslavement of their people.  The guilt for my actions weighs heavily on me, so I try to distract myself by posting on an internet messageboard about US politics.  Unfortunately, my other life has, on occasion, caught up with me here.  I brought my associates to the quarters of another Atlas moderator known as "The Vorlon" and, well, I've already given away far too many spoilers for those of you who haven't watched the reenactments of my adventures on TV, so I'll stop there.

I wouldn't worry about it.  Bygones.  No one's looking for revenge.

I mean, what would anyone do?  Place your severed head upon a pike as a warning unto the next ten generations that some bargains come at too high a price?  Pshaw.  What kind of person would do that?

[kcguy]

Hey, I'm not having— wait crap I am, kind of, now, maybe.  To a certain extent.  It's hard to adjust to actually dating.  Suffice it to say, kids, if you're distressed by your inexperience, I can assure you that there is hope on the horizon, and it is known as the Internet.  I had gone no further than a friendly hug with either sex before January (that, my 269th month upon the Earth), and now that is not the case.

22?

That's nothing.  I didn't kiss another guy until I was 26.

Then again, based on my last post, that may not be a surprise.

[kcguy]

Since I've read everyone else's confessions, I feel like I should share, but I don't know what to mention.  (I mean, you already know I'm fascinated by redistricting, and that's usually one of the last things I'll admit to.)

I don't think of myself as OCD, but I can be extremely repetitive with my morning routine.  It can sometimes take me 20 minutes to brush my teeth.

I also have the urge to add up numbers on digital displays, to see if the numbers add up to a multiple of 9.  For example, my cable box reads "8:55", which adds up to 18, so I'm happy.

I frequently won't shower on days I don't leave the house (which is most Sundays).  And I often don't shave on the weekends at all.  It isn't because of any depression issues.  (Especially now, since I seem to be mildly seasonal-affective, and I'm currently on a sunshine-induced "high".)  I'm just lazy.

A couple of years ago, I made a fool of myself over a guy I only met once.  He was cute, and he told me he was an archivist.  I was surprised what a Pavlovian response that induced in me.  Unfortunately, he was straight, and I'm sure I just came across as creepy.

At the moment, these are the worst I can think of.  I don't usually dwell on the eccentricities that make me me.

[kcguy]

I can kinda relate to the other side of that- I battle with chronically low self esteem so on some level I feel like most of the people who say they like me are just being nice, both here and irl

As a fellow-sufferer of chronically low self-esteem, I think I understand your feelings, BK. 

I tried to post a response to this once, but I must not have hit "Post".

I haven't been on this forum very long, but both of you have already left an impression on me.

Bacon King:
1.  You're cute, in a weird Tom Wopat kind of way.
2.  When I tried to post my first image and was having problems, you were nice enough to reach out to me and try to help.  I never said thanks.  Thanks.

Anvi:
I have less of an impression formed of your personality, but I do have two things in common with you.
1.  Unlike most of the posters on this forum, you're about my age.
2.  Like me, you claim Danube Swabian ancestry.
(Admittedly, these have nothing to do with self-esteem, but at least you've managed to stand out in a crowd.)