The Confession Booth: Post something very personal about yourself

[Anti Democrat Democrat Club]

Those of you who have yet to touch a female. Is it becuase you don't like them or because they don't like you?  No need to answer that one in a post. Just know thyself. And seize the day. Nobody's getting any younger.

I've only been in love three times in my life. First one I was too slow to move in on, second one I was too much of a bitch about it to make a move, and third time I got shot down.

But yeah, if y'all are in the friendzone, stop bitching. Just go for her friends, they've probably heard stories about how good of a guy you are and want to meet you anyway.

[Anti Democrat Democrat Club]

On this day, one year ago, I almost killed myself.

My anxiety was at its peak last year (that resulted in me missing around around 25-30 days of school not counting sick days) and took its toll on my grades to the point where my graduation was in danger. My mother wasn't private at all about it (specifically telling family, her friends, and even my friends), and it started spreading to kids at school. I thought I wasn't going to graduate, so I started getting suicidal thoughts. When I told my father about my thoughts, he thought I was faking them to "play video games and f(inks) around on the computer all day". After hearing my dad basically say that I don't even have the fortitude to kill myself, I decided to scrap the makeup work I had to do, write an elaborate suicide note,  tell my friends goodbye, and after, hang myself from one of the towel hooks in the bathroom.

I remember at the time I went back to school the note had three pages and was around 80% complete. It had a message to everyone explaining the reason why I did it, the wishes for my funeral, and another message telling everyone not to "throw away their gifts" like I did, to keep on living, and that I would say hi to the kids that died for everyone. After I went to bed, I was forced back to school, where my mind wandered from killing myself.

Long story short, after that, I pulled myself out of this funk I was in, told my therapist about my problems with school, made a plan to graduate with him, and after working my ass off for six weeks, I graduated high school with my class and started my year off from school. Looking back on this past year after graduation, I had a few flings (couldn't quite seal the deal with either of the girls), got a job that turned out to be the best summer/fall of my life, met a countless amount of new people, got to shake the president's hand, grew a great friendship with my now-best friend, found the Atlas, and, of course, got accepted to my top choice for college.

Is that a life worth living? I'd say it is.

[Anti Democrat Democrat Club]

I'm glad one of my friends left for college and at this point I'm happy I don't get to see him until Christmas. If you were in IRC Wednesday you would know, but for those of you who weren't...

Basically I made plans to say have one last day out with the guys a few weeks ago. I'm not even going to lie, I made them so I could say goodbye to all of them before I left. Knowing this, my friend decided to hijack the planning twice so his friend could come there (ftr both of them barely know us, and although I'm cool with both of them I want to prioritize my friends over them), even though I couldn't come. I had plans to see my grandmother, who's 89. At that age, you might not have until Christmas to live.

I said something along the lines of "I can't go. I have to see my grandmother that day. I feel like you want your friends to come more than me, and I just want to see y'all one more time for the next four months. You come back in a month anyway." He just went off on me, lost his sh(inks), and essentially sabotaged my last chance to say goodbye to my friends. He decided that he was having his own thing in the afternoon and to invite everyone then.

Between this and him trying to go after a girl I was talking to, I'm still pissed at him. (tl;dr, run into an old friend who liked me, realized it was me and immediately went crazy, then makes a move on me and he thinks it's on him) I had to be convinced to attend the last wings run for the year by about three people, and after I told them what happened I decided to do the mature thing about it and go anyways. I rescheduled my trip to my grandmother's, went out with the group, said goodbye to my friends, and said good riddance to him.

Knowing that I'm still pissed about it now maybe four months away will be good.

[Anti Democrat Democrat Club]

Oh I understand now... And where will you study next year?

I'm studying in Pennsylvania. I really need the change of scenery, plus I have family and friends down there.

[Anti Democrat Democrat Club]

Oh I understand now... And where will you study next year?

I'm studying in Pennsylvania. I really need the change of scenery, plus I have family and friends down there.

University of Pennsylvania? I'm not sure but I think it's a really prestigious university. Congratulations!

No, Millersville University.